I always thought that he will be the one who leaves me, but i was wrong. things changed when i left my comfort zone to chase my dream.
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do you remember the story of who moved my cheese? there were 2 mice in a closed down supermarket, one ran out to look for a new supermarket. On the other hand, the other one stayed waiting for the supermarket to reopen. Both of them got what they wanted but they were separated forever. I am the one who ran out to look for a new opportunity yet he stayed, I am Emily Watson.
We thought we could manager the long distance relationship since both of us are loyal people and there are so many successful long distance relationship between both of us. Yet, we were both wrong.we only manage to maintain it for 1 week. I told him i felt insecure, i hope to have a short break, if were still single for 5 years we will be together again. he was mad at me, and we didnt contact each other anymore. he didnt know how many i cried when he did not reply my text message, how unsecured i felt. everytime, everyday i will think did he be with me because i was the only available one since the one he liked rejected him? i dare not voice out my dislike, i am afraid he might leave me yet at the end of the day i was the one who asked for separation.
I loved him more than anything else, i once told him, if both of us were drown in the ocean, i will throw my safety ring to him. it has been 10 years since we separated. He was married and divorced with a son.
Well, i wasnt too far from him, i am getting married soon. My boyfriend was my boss in New York. We have been in a relationship for 2 years and we decided to move on to another stage. I thought i have erase him from my memory until the day i saw him at the cafe.
I was walking at Manhattan preparing for my wedding, i look into the cafe and i saw familiar back. i couldnt believe what i saw because he never step into a coffee house without me. he used to tell me he doesnt know what to order. when i was still in college, i was a part time bar tender, i was very familiar with drinks, so he is very much depend on me. i though he will never visit the coffee house anymore but i was wrong again. who am i? im just one of his ex, why wouldnt he visit the cafe without me? I laughed at my self and thought of continue my walking but i noticed he stared at me. i couldnt care less, i walked away. maybe i was angry, how could he live without me.
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i saw her, reminds me of my days when i just stepped out to the society. i loved her more then anything else, i was so prepared to wait and married her when she is back. she found someone better and simply said that she felt insecure. everyone told me she is going to leave me when she expose to better men, but i told them we are going to be together. i was wrong.
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do you remember the movie by Marilyn Monroe? diamonds are girls best friends? at that time i was certainly not what she need, not what she expect, i was just a poor businessman, im Thomas Elliot.
li thought is so easy to erase her from my memory but i failed myself when i saw her i noticed, i miss her. i denied but deep inside i know i miss her a lot. she was a spoiled princess. she changed a lot of me or like what she always said she didnt not changed me just activated the evil sides of mine.
"daddy, im sleepy." a little boy walked to me, he is son.
"go to bed then." i told him and i turned off my laptop
"daddy, this is so cool!" he took a metal box from my study table. it was a present from her. it suppose to be a box for my watch and i used it for my coins and eventually, i forgot it was from her.
"it has been here for awhile. i cant believe you did not notice it." i mocked my son
"i asked mummy once and she wanted to throw it away and i stopped her. she told me not to ask you about this box." he said "since she is not here now, so i asked. daddy can i have it? i love it."
"I will think about it if you are a good boy. but certainly there is no promise."
"daddy you are a cheater" he said and point at my nose
i dont know why did i say that. why cant i give the box to my son? i cant answer myself.
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i turn off my old sony ericsson phone, i saw some saved text messages he sent to me. i miss him so much, my teared rolled down so naturally. he is such a bastard. how could he still live inside me when he was married and divorce? i found someone so much better, but why? why am i still thinking of him?
i tried to sms him, i wrote:
i miss you.
it has been so many years he must have changed his phone number. im such an idiot. there was a click sound i knew it will be my boyfriend asking me did i have my dinner yet, i ignored it and walked out my apartment.
vote for the ending you like:
A. The text message was from him written "Silly girl..."
B. The text message was from her boyfriend asking about her dinner
C. The text message was from him written "Get married and stay happy."
D. The text message was from him written "Do you know what are you doing?"
i voted for A! how about you? comment!!! i will continue after the vote. =D
p/s: im totally fine, i saw momoko's fb status and thought of it.. it might be a little about me but this is what made a tzen's story complete right? with my shadow in it. =D
