Saturday, February 5, 2011

Can you be crazier than this? Special

I opened my eyes and touched on my left cheek and I felt my warm tears. That dream was very annoying, in fact it was so annoying that I can't even explain it in words. I dreamed that 'he' was happily dating Wendy. I mean, Wendy, oh yes, the bimbo Wendy.

'he' was the only reason I am working so hard and giving up almost everything in my life and 'he' was happily dating the bimbotic Wendy in my dream? for heaven's sake, give me a break! I mean please, she is one of the the the.. okay fine, I am not going to say anything bad about her since she is my only friend here, but still this is wrong.
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"Today's class is going to end here. Thank you." The vocal instructor said and walked out the room.

"Dianne, What are we going to have for lunch?" A girl with a tan skin tone asked.

"Erm, I dont feel hungry, I dont think I will be joining you." I answered

"But babe, I am gonna be alone." She asked

"I am sorry, I don't feel like having anything right now." I said

"Well, okay" and she walked out the classroom.

Looking at her back and I thought, what's so special about her? She ain't pretty, don't even mention about body figure. Why? Why her? I know I might be taking my dream too serious, but still, I don't get it! I stop thinking and walked out the classroom.
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Can the weather be colder than this? This is madness, I can't feel my ears! My nose is gonna break soon. I was standing at the entrance of the building of my future entertainment company. Oh forget to mention, I am a trainee now and I am expected to be a singer in 10 months time. I looked around and I saw Wendy was talking with someone. I didn't bother until I had a closer look... What the hell!? Is that 'him'!? Why are they looking so happy? damn it! Fine, is not like I am going to die without him, I will be much more successful and...

"Ahh!" I scream when someone touched my ears.

"Hey, why are you standing alone here?" 'he' asked

"What do you want!?" I asked sharply

"Come on, why are you angry?" He asked and took out his ear muffs. He placed his ear muffs on my ears "Your ears are gonna break soon." he smiled

"Take it back." I was angry at myself and jealous of that dream. I wanted to take out my ear muffs and he stopped me.

"Come on now, what's going on?" He asked again "lets go for lunch."

"Lets go babe!" Wendy shouted from the other side

"No." With Wendy? Come on, i just had a dream that I was the light bulb of both of them! give me a break!

"Aren't you hungry?" He asked

"No." I said again and took off the ear muff and gave it back to him "Bye!" I walked away.

I know I am acting like a demanding princess right now, but you just don't understand how annoying was that and it was about to happen in front of me. I just want to be alone and cry in my both room once i reached my room. that's all. so leave me alone.

I was walking really fast because it was snowing, and someone knocked me from the opposite direction and my brand new Iphone dropped on the floor. I stare at my phone and I teared. What's going on? My life is so darn hard here, i got nobody here with me. I know nothing about this country, I am learning and working really hard and now what? I just lost what I was looking for all the time and my new Iphone as well? Come on, what on earth is wrong with me?

Someone placed a pair of earmuffs on me again and placed my Iphone into my coat's pocket. At that moment, I hope it's 'him', I turned back

"What is wrong with you?" 'he' asked "What's going on?"

"Why are you following me? Aren't you suppose to have lunch with Wendy?" I asked and wiped my tears away with my hand

"I call it off, you are looking really stress out. Are you okay?" He asked

"No. Which part of me looks okay to you?" I asked

"So, what is wrong?" He asked again "Why are you angry at me without a reason?"

"Are you free?" I asked

"Yea.."

"Come with me." I said and I hold his hand. I want to go all the places that Wendy and he went in my dream.
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We went to all the places and finally, we had a break. We were sitting on the bench and sharing a Venti Latte.

"What is all these about?" He asked

"It's nice that most people have gone back to their hometown during Christmas and only people like us who is not born here left in the city." I said without answering his question

"yea, even the paparazzi are on holiday." He said

"Yup! Is must be hard to be a Super Star like you." I teased

"One day, you might end up like me." He said

"Hahaha! I wish!" I said

We were silent and I said "You know, I will never be in a relationship with a super star, never"

"Why?" He stare at me and asked

"Too competitive I guess." I said "I just realised it today, anyway." Or I should say I am being sour grape?

"Bullshit..." He said and laughed

"You will never know how it feels." I said and thought of the dream again

"I love you." he whispered

"Huh!?" I was stunned and looked at him

"I said, I love you." He said

"Is not funny." I said

"I am serious."

"Are you training your acting skill on me? if yes, I will said it was so good that I almost thought it's real." I mocked

"Dianne..." He kissed me on my lips "I really mean what I said."

"whhyyyy?" I asked

"Because you are Dianne." He said

"Ermm.. okayy.."

"Hey, tell me, why were you mad at me just now."

"That's private." I said

"Come on now.."

"No..."

"You silly girl." He said "Im going to finish the Latte if you are not going to tell me."

"Hey! I bought that!" I cried

"Come on!"

"Fine, I had the most annoying dream in my whole life last night!"

"About?"

"Wendy."

"So you were angry because I talked to her?"

"No.."

"Then?"

"Okay fine, I am gonna tell you." I said "I dreamed that both of you were happily dating and i was alone walking behind both of you."

"Wait.. do you mean that Wendy had a thing about me?" He asked

"Yes. Come one! Her Iphone is full of your photos!" I said angrily

"I never look into her phone before, why are you getting mad?"

"just.. just angry."

"Well, you dream is not going to happen and it will never." He hugged me "Come on darling, i thought everyone agreed that she is a bimbo." and both of us laughed

happy cny, peeps.

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