Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

Hello everyone in Malaysia. It must be sunny over there. Is getting really cold here and I had a fever last week. I couldn't find any doctor around. What am I talking about, I can't expect any clinic to be open at a moment like this. Thank god that my beloved mother packed a huge amount of medicine, I think if i stay healthy those medicine can last really long.

I suppose this my only way to contact my family and tell them, their baby Steph is really safe here and I am married, and please not to worry he is a very kind person. There is no ceremony or anything, it was done in a rush.

I really miss home. I wish I am with all of you.

27th of July 2016

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

Terrius, my husband finally found a job and we have moved to a better place last week. It was a miracle to get a job at a time like this and most importantly, he is not a local here. The place we are staying now is at a suburb that is quite far away from the city. The place is bigger and air is fresher as well. The only reason for moving away from the city is for safety reasons of course. However, Terrius has to wake up really early to get to work in the city.

I wonder how's everyone home doing. Must be really good eh? I received a letter from my mother and it was opened. I guess the people in the post office checked the content in it. No matter what, it was really great to received letter from home.

27th of August 2016

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

Autumn is almost here. Is getting a little cold now. We went shopping for some clothes yesterday. I bought a lot of them as I didn't even notice how long did I took in the fitting room. I felt a little bad after paying that I only realized it was half past three and we had not have our lunch yet. However, Terrius didn't complain anything about it. In fact, he was surprised that I smiled that much while shopping. That's what a girls does isn't? For a girl like me who has trapped at home for 3 months, and first time ever went shopping for that long, of course I would smile like crazy. :)

Btw, Happy belated birthday, mother. I am not sure did you receive my letter, but i am sure you wil be able to read this. I love you.

27th of September 2016

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

This entry is dedicated to my father. Happy birthday. Thank you for everything. Thank you for giving me the chance to study aboard even though I did ended up here, married and not finishing my studies. If it wasn't me wanting to be prove myself that badly I wouldn't ended up here, making all of you back home worrying about me. I am very sorry. I hope your health gets better. I love you, you are the best father ever.

27th of October 2016

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

I am working now. I am getting some part time graphic job from all over the world though internet, Yes, finally, we got our internat fixed. After for waiting for so long from the old apartment to this house. I have set up a website on doing all the graphic stuff to kill some of my time. Surprisingly, most of my client are from Malaysia and I found it very comforting.

After both of my parents birthday month, this is my birthday month. We went to a Turkish Restaurant to celebrate. It was a very nice place, even though is not the best Turkish ever, but is very clever of Terruis to found such a nice place during this time. I was very happy really.

27th of November 2016

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

Hello Malaysia! Christmas just passed. Did you manage to booked your tables or turkeys yet? I recall that Isetan always have very nice turkeys and not to forget Sun Moulin's cakes. Talking about cakes, which bakery do you prefer in Malaysia? San Terri in Bangsar Village or Sun Moulin? Both of them are my favorite bakery but if I really have, I mean really really have to, I will go to Sun Moulin's fruit cake for sure. Nevertheless, San Terri's green tea cake is a bomb as well. Aww... I am missing those wonderful pastries now.

We bought a plastic Christmas tree. It was my idea to get a plastic one because it is cleaner and it can be use again next year. Terrius had no object on this since I am the one who cleaning the house, so plastic wins.

Merry belated-Christmas everyone.

Even though most of us are not Christian but I know most of us celebrated Christmas in Malaysia. Me? I am a buddhist with a Christian husband, so is a must to celebrate.

27th of December 2016

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

I had a wonderful time this month. It has been six months in here, it seems like the most frightening time has passed and everything is getting back to normal. Since the city seems to be safer than before, shops and restaurants are getting back to their business as well. Nowadays, we eat out more frequently compare to before especially on weekends. We saw the news on the paper that international workers are allowed to register for lost passport, I can't tell how happy was us. We immediately when to our own respective embassy to apply for it. We have submitted the form but the officer from the embassy told us, there is no promise when could we get it.

27th of January 2017

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Dear Diary,

It has been a year here. I have got used to the country lifestyle. Last week was our first anniversary. We never plan to celebrate it, after all there was a secret between it. Both of us was well aware that it has been a year but we didn't mention.

At late night, I was alone drinking beer at the balcony and Terrius silently joined me. We didn't talk. It was a very awkward day for both of us. We didn't talk much on that day. However, is very obvious that there was something bothering us. After his third can of beer he hugged me. It was the first time, we were so close to each other that I could hear his heartbeat. Unwillingly, I teared. I know what did the hug meant and I was very delight. everything happened so quickly and both of us are not even prepared. We been thru a lot.

It has been a tough year. Hopefully, it will be a brighter year ahead.

27th of May 2017

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

Hi, I am Stephanie Tee. I worked for The Moon, a respective Malaysian newspaper. I submit my monthly diary entry to and they will publish it at the Moon Metro section. I am originally a Malaysian. Four years ago, I was trapped in Middle East and I am married to my husband, Terrius Dryburgh, who is Scottish. We are now settling down in Melbourne, Australia. My husband is a lecturer in Monash. and me? I owned a very unique cafe at Spring Street.

Below shown was my last entry to The Moon:

Dear Diary,

Finally, We have booked our air tickets home! I can't they you how thrilled I was the moment I got my passport from the embassy. There is someone I really want to thanks and if it wasn't him, I don't know where would I be now or will i be alive. He is my husband.

Thank you for telling a such a huge lie to those people for not taking me away. If wasn't that lie, I don't know where will I ended up be and I will not know what will I be doing right now and will I be alive.

Since this is my last entry, I will tell you the secret that I have been mentioning all over my previous entries. I was a student at that time. I came to Middle East with both of my lecturers (Terrius and Bradley) and Bradley's wife for a competition. The country was in peace when we was here and suddenly things changed for some political reason. We never expect for this to happen and the airport was shut down. We were trap in the country and there are a lot of snatching and robberies going on at the time. Both of our passports were missing.

One day on the street, a middle aged man spoke some language I don't understand and brutally draged me. At the moment, Terrius stopped them. I didn't know what ere they talking about and all I heard from Terrius was "she is my wife". The middle aged man stopped and stared at Terrius and asked for prove. Bradley qiuckly added "They are suppose to be married in two weeks time". The middle aged man insisted us to get married on that day or he is going to bring me to some horrible place so we di what he wanted, that's the only solution of that time anyway.

I have never dream that we would be married and not to mention how much I hated his classes. I always taught that he has a horrible taste and is one of the most boring tutor/ lecturer ever. Yet, we are now married and it has four years.

Sorry to be a bit wordy this entry. This will be the last from me for sometime. I hope all of you will be happy forever and best of health.

ps. A very happy Chinese new year!

27th of February 2020

Stephanie Tee Dryburgh

:) story inspired by a song from SHE's Selina.

I thought of expanding it more. what do you think?

it's gonna rain again 2

"Sweetheart are you ready for work today?" Asked a middle aged women

Her name was Tiffany. Aunt Tiffany was my only relative left. I was a her husband's daughter. Few years ago, my parents passed away because of SARS. My parents were doctors, just like aunt Tiffany's husband. Three of them volunteer to work for the SARS patients and my uncle and my father passed away not long after and followed by my mother as well.

"Yes." I said and walked out to the cafe.

"There you go." she passed me a cup of tea "You are still a little girl inside."

"What makes you think so?"

"You hate coffee." She said and laughed

"Aunt Tif..." and i stared at my watch "Oh no! im going to be late.." again..

"I will see you tonight at dinner!" I ran out of the cafe and ran to my car

"I hope you dont be back for dinner." said Aunt Tiffany

"Why not?" Asked a gentlemen

"Oh.. im sorry, i thought no one was here." She replied

"Is ok.. can i have a long black?"

"Take away?" She guessed by looking at his outfit.

"Yea.."

"She was my brother-in-law's daughter. It has been a long long time after her puppy love." she said "She broke up with her boyfriend because of someone she met only once and she was so confident that she will found him. "

He was silent

"I dont really like her first boyfriend either but there is no point for her to wait for someone she dont even know his name for so many years. furthermore i dont think that person even remember her." She said and passed the coffee to him "Im so sorry for telling you my family problems."

"Is okay, from now on i will be a regular customer of yours." He said and had a slip of his coffee "I need my morning coffee on every weekdays."

"Of coz." she replied.

"someone she didnt even know his name huh? an idiot of a hopeless romantic?" He asked himself

__________________________________________

"Please wait!" I cried and ran into the lift "Thank you"

The lift was so full that i believe the next person walk in it's going to start crying of over load. luckily im skinny enough.. LOL.

"excuse me" A women said and i walked out the lift to allow them to walk out. i walked back into the lift where only a man with a cup of coffee on his hand left. I looked at him and i realised he was the man i met in the rain few years ago

"Oh my god!" I cried. is him!!! That person i have waited, i wonder does he remember me or he doesnt even remember about that day

"Do i know you?" He asked.

"Erm, no. "I answered "I thought you were someone i know." I said. Im very certain it's him, that voice.

"Oh.." and we did not talk anymore

___________________________________

"Do you know the new director is here today?" My friend asked me

"Erm.. no" how would i know? didnt i just reached the office?

"He is extremely handsome! he looks so cool!"

"Really?" i cant think but that person i met just now. finally, i found him but he doesnt remember me.

"There will be a meeting in 15 minutes." said a guy "hey our new director!" The guy said and pointed on the upper floor.

Is him! why is he working with me? Oh My god! what should i do? Sigh.. i cant believe in my luck sometimes.

__________________________________

"Brigitte, are going dinner with us?" Asked a girl

"Oh no, i promised Aunt Tiffany that im going to dine with her tonight. Plus i still have something to do." I answered

"Sigh.. why do i have so much crap to do? Why do i have save everyone's ass! damn it." I whispered angrily. "Why do i have to deal with a bunch of idiots? why cant i find a better job? why do i have to work with 'him'????" a thousand of questions, i need answers!

"You should ask your self, why dont you ask for help when is needed instead of telling the bunch of useless idiots is okay i will do it!" Someone said

I look at the direction of the voice came from, is the upper floor and i saw him standing at the transparent divider.

"You dont even know what is going on, dont make it like you have been in this office for very long." What does he know? if i dont complete the work, if i dont save their ass, i might be fired because we are in a team. does he know that?

"What i know is you have to burn mid night oil without a good reason." He replied

"What are you doing here? is already 8pm." I asked

"Are you aware that im your boss? i think i deserve a more polite way of speaking."

"Fine, im not going to ask you anything." I only know you forget about me

He didnt walked away but looking at her

"What an idiot" he thought and smiled

"Stop staring at me." I cried

"Okay, im leaving. good luck" He said and walked to my desk "Looks like you have a lot to complete."he said and walked away

what a bastard!? he said and smile and walked away! i wait a bastard for so long? oh my god! i must be crazy!

___________________________________________

"Aww, im hungry." I said and looked at my watch "It's 9pm. im sure aunt Tiffany is asleep."

I looked up and i saw him with 2 packed of food.

"Your dinner." He said "What else do you need to do?" He sat beside me and switch on his laptop

"I can do it my self." I answer

"Im your boss, im ordering you to give me some of your work." he said

"can you.." be more polite!? " this is the last one." i passed to him

"next time, i dont want to see your face after 6pm." he said

"I will try." i said and i realized it's raining outside

"Why are you staring at the window?" he asked

"It's raining." I said and thought of that rainy day again

"A girl sat on me once, on a heavy rain" He said

"do you still contact her?" I asked

"No" He answered "Why should i?" He asked

"How does she looks like?" I asked

"Short and skinny, i dont remember her face" He answered

"Why not?" I asked

"She was a kid, why do i need to remember a kid? is not like she is a hot babe." He said 'Why are you so curious about it?"

"I was trying to talk to you so the mood wouldnt look so dead here." i said

"Is not a need." He said "i dont like to talk when im working."

"Whatever." I answered

"The fish burger is yours, please dont take the beef burger coz it's mine."

"thanks, how much is it?" I asked

"Is not a need. is a treat from your new boss."

"How thoughtful, a treat. McDonald's." i mocked

"Dont force yourself to eat it if you dont want to." he teased me

Im Princess

"Im Princess." I said

"you are your daddy's princess. not a real princess." he said calmly

"no im a princess and you are a frog" i said and smiled like a child

he kissed me and said "we are both frogs now."

"Nope, you are a prince now and you should thank me." I claimed "Froggie" i hugged him

He laughed and pulled me near his chest.

__________________________________

i still remember the first day i saw him at work, even though he didnt noticed me.

I was an intern in the architecture firm. As an intern i didnt gain much attention from my bosses. All i got is tons of hand drew drafts that needed to be draw into AutoCAD. I work form 9am to 5pm. i go home on time and didnt really have any strong relationship with any of my colleagues. I used to reject all of the dinner invitation with them and even movie section. I am too lazy to put in effort to social with them because I know, all i need is experience to build my resume. All I want is to be forgotten by everyone here after this 3 months of internship. Of coz there are some people that really annoyed me and feel like slapping her every morning when i see her. However, i ignored. ignorant is bliss.

After working for about a month. I saw a tall and lean man with short hair, glasses and pair of really shinny earrings walked into the office and ignored everyone. He talked to one of my colleague that most of the people in the company adores her even myself. he passed something to her and walked into a room that i always thought it's empty. i wonder who is he. I turned back and i saw the annoying women is laughing with the adorable girl. i bet they know him or maybe everyone in the office knows him except for me.

"Everyone, we have to do OT tonight." Said my manager.

Is not like we have a choice. However, today is my mother's birthday how could i miss it? What am i suppose to do?

_______________________________________

I manage to tell my manager i need to leave for few hours for some reason and will be back by 9pm. I walked into the meeting room and i saw everyone there. including the guy with shinny earring. I didnt really look at him. i was too lazy to do what im not suppose or appointed to do so. im tired. all i felt like doing at that moment is to shower and craw into my soft and comfy bed.

"Ahh.." My coffee cup has over filled with piping hot water. It hurt my hand.

"Woah!" He cried and quickly turn off the coffee machine "Are you okay?" He asked

It's the guy with shinny earrings, i thought.

"Hello?" He repeated

"Yea.. I am fine." I answered "Thank you"

"Are you sure? The water is boiling hot." He said calmly

"yea." I said and put my hand on the sink prepare to turn on the water

"Hey, dont do that." He cried and took some burn cream from the cupboard. "Use this."

"Is not right to expose your hand to water after you got burn."

"Oh, ok." I said i applied some of the burn cream on my hand

"Are you new here?" He said

"Not really Im here for about a month" just that you didnt notice me i thought.

"I didnt noticed you." He said and quickly added "I dont mean.."

"Is okay." I said and thought he actually looked kinda cool. I dont know what is it about but his shinny earrings suits him well.

"Nate." He said

"Huh?"

"My name"

"Elvina." I answered and walked out the pantry

She looks very special. huge eyes and fair skin. of coz she isnt hot but somehow, is attractive. is she the pretty new girl Jason cant talking about? he thought and have a sip of his coffee.

Everyone was laughing and joking in the meeting room. I guess this is how OT suppose to be like.

"Nate you are surprisingly quite." Said the adorable girl "Are you afraid of Elvina?"

"What are you talking about?" He said, raised his left eyebrow and joked "I am going to fire you."

"Im not afraid of you" She answered

"So how's the girl you are going after?" Asked a guy named Jason

"I dont know." He said "I have lost hope"

"Who is she?" Asked the annoying girl

"Some random girl works in the same building as us." Jason answered

He looks calm and fine. didnt seemed to be disturbed at all. "She is nothing special, is a kinda of feeling that attracted me."

" I wonder why did she rejected you." Said the adorable girl

"She didnt, she is holding me."

"Isnt it a kind way of rejection?" Said the annoying girl

"I dont know." He answered and continue doing whatever he was doing

_________________________________

After a few days.

"Hey why are you still here?" He asked

"Oh, i need to get everything done by today." I answered

"Why?" he asked "It's friday night, go have some fun"

"I wont be working anymore." I simply answered

"Why?" He asked

"Im an intern. today is my last day." I said

"Oh... So you will be start schooling soon?" He asked

"Not so soon, i will have another 2 months of holiday." I said and smiled

"Wao.. enjoying." He said and smiled

"Where are you studying?" He asked

"Brisbane." I answered

"Cool! I was there last month for our project."

"Oh really. "

"Let me help you."

"Is okay, im cool." I rejected his offer

"Neah, buy me supper and we will be cool." He simply said

"Actually i left 2 more and i will be done."

"Let me help" he insisted.

"Okay."

After that day, we start to text each other rapidly in a week.

"I just got home from work, it was a crazy night" he texted me

"It's 12am. must be crazy."

"Yea, how was your day? slacking at home?"

"Erm.. relaxing not so much on slacking."

"Lets have dinner tomorrow."

"Okay. Hey can i tell you something but you promise me not to tell anyone?"

"Sure."

"mmm.. Better not. i am afraid that i will regret"

"Tell me or else you will be really regret" he knows what is it about

"I think i like you." I replied his text without thinking

when we meet again....

I always thought that he will be the one who leaves me, but i was wrong. things changed when i left my comfort zone to chase my dream.

l

do you remember the story of who moved my cheese? there were 2 mice in a closed down supermarket, one ran out to look for a new supermarket. On the other hand, the other one stayed waiting for the supermarket to reopen. Both of them got what they wanted but they were separated forever. I am the one who ran out to look for a new opportunity yet he stayed, I am Emily Watson.

We thought we could manager the long distance relationship since both of us are loyal people and there are so many successful long distance relationship between both of us. Yet, we were both wrong.we only manage to maintain it for 1 week. I told him i felt insecure, i hope to have a short break, if were still single for 5 years we will be together again. he was mad at me, and we didnt contact each other anymore. he didnt know how many i cried when he did not reply my text message, how unsecured i felt. everytime, everyday i will think did he be with me because i was the only available one since the one he liked rejected him? i dare not voice out my dislike, i am afraid he might leave me yet at the end of the day i was the one who asked for separation.

I loved him more than anything else, i once told him, if both of us were drown in the ocean, i will throw my safety ring to him. it has been 10 years since we separated. He was married and divorced with a son.

Well, i wasnt too far from him, i am getting married soon. My boyfriend was my boss in New York. We have been in a relationship for 2 years and we decided to move on to another stage. I thought i have erase him from my memory until the day i saw him at the cafe.

I was walking at Manhattan preparing for my wedding, i look into the cafe and i saw familiar back. i couldnt believe what i saw because he never step into a coffee house without me. he used to tell me he doesnt know what to order. when i was still in college, i was a part time bar tender, i was very familiar with drinks, so he is very much depend on me. i though he will never visit the coffee house anymore but i was wrong again. who am i? im just one of his ex, why wouldnt he visit the cafe without me? I laughed at my self and thought of continue my walking but i noticed he stared at me. i couldnt care less, i walked away. maybe i was angry, how could he live without me.

* * * * *

i saw her, reminds me of my days when i just stepped out to the society. i loved her more then anything else, i was so prepared to wait and married her when she is back. she found someone better and simply said that she felt insecure. everyone told me she is going to leave me when she expose to better men, but i told them we are going to be together. i was wrong.

l

do you remember the movie by Marilyn Monroe? diamonds are girls best friends? at that time i was certainly not what she need, not what she expect, i was just a poor businessman, im Thomas Elliot.

l

i thought is so easy to erase her from my memory but i failed myself when i saw her i noticed, i miss her. i denied but deep inside i know i miss her a lot. she was a spoiled princess. she changed a lot of me or like what she always said she didnt not changed me just activated the evil sides of mine.

"daddy, im sleepy." a little boy walked to me, he is son.

"go to bed then." i told him and i turned off my laptop

"daddy, this is so cool!" he took a metal box from my study table. it was a present from her. it suppose to be a box for my watch and i used it for my coins and eventually, i forgot it was from her.

"it has been here for awhile. i cant believe you did not notice it." i mocked my son

"i asked mummy once and she wanted to throw it away and i stopped her. she told me not to ask you about this box." he said "since she is not here now, so i asked. daddy can i have it? i love it."

"I will think about it if you are a good boy. but certainly there is no promise."

"daddy you are a cheater" he said and point at my nose

i dont know why did i say that. why cant i give the box to my son? i cant answer myself.

* * * * *

i turn off my old sony ericsson phone, i saw some saved text messages he sent to me. i miss him so much, my teared rolled down so naturally. he is such a bastard. how could he still live inside me when he was married and divorce? i found someone so much better, but why? why am i still thinking of him?

i tried to sms him, i wrote:

i miss you.

it has been so many years he must have changed his phone number. im such an idiot. there was a click sound i knew it will be my boyfriend asking me did i have my dinner yet, i ignored it and walked out my apartment.

vote for the ending you like:

A. The text message was from him written "Silly girl..."

B. The text message was from her boyfriend asking about her dinner

C. The text message was from him written "Get married and stay happy."

D. The text message was from him written "Do you know what are you doing?"

i voted for A! how about you? comment!!! i will continue after the vote. =D

p/s: im totally fine, i saw momoko's fb status and thought of it.. it might be a little about me but this is what made a tzen's story complete right? with my shadow in it. =D

is okay.

"do i look like i dont care about you?" he sounded annoyed and exhausted with his driving wheels on his hands.

"No.." i answered softly and trying hard to avoid my tears tumbling down.

"If there is anything, you better have tell it now, i am buggered." He said "I am tired of going home answering your text messages."

I am a bad talker. i found it very difficult to voice things out, i rather write it out. that's our problem. he always prefer i voice it out and he can answer me with our mother tongue, but he never know everytime when i start voicing it out, he will misunderstood me.

I was silent and all i wanted is to get home as soon as possible but the traffic was terrible.
____________________________________

it was a saddening morning. my room was cold and dark, as if i was inside a huge chiller. i opened up my eyes and i started to cry with or without a reason.

i was under depression, my family was giving me pressure and my father nearly had an affair with someone he shouldnt even thought of. the image of a role model has changed. i feel uneasy, disgusted everytime i look at him. my mother was facing a serious financial problem that i cant even help.

after a little moment of crying, i got my self back together. i grab my cellphone that was right beside me and i saw a text message from him. it was just a very normal text message telling me good morning, that he is leaving to some other state for his job and will be back by night. we exchanged text msg and made cried even more. i eventually fall asleep till late noon after half an hour of crying.

i finally woke up and started to express my feeling to my best friend and i noticed how nice to pour everything out at once. getting console from her is one of the best damn thing, she just know what to do to makes me feel better.

i told her i decided to set him free from me, i am not the happy girl he met at first and i might not able to be as happy again. besides i am leaving my home country for my education. long distance relationship hardly success, although i have really great examples of LDR around me but i know it might not work on me, a relationship that was still so young and immature. we have been together for not even 6 months, and i have lost counts on our arguments, what will happen when LDR occurs? i cant imagine.

i told myself, i will talk to him when the next time i meet him.

i turned on my messenger and he send me a message. i simply replied him just to keep him entertained. unfortunately he noticed it. i got a lame reason lying to him that i was on the phone. and i told him what happened hours ago, that i cant get to the travel agent that sell me the air tickets. he told me he felt that i having problems and im not willing to share, i wasnt happy as before. he told me he is afraid that im going to leave him. i felt very bad, he shouldnt be trapped with someone like me. im under depression but why must he suffers like me? this has made me feel like letting him go is totally the right thing to do. i cant be so selfish keeping him with me, an unhappy girl.

he called me, i used a tiny pillow besides me to cover my phone, i didnt want to answer. i acted like nth happened, i send him a msg thur msn asking him is he thr, why aint he answering my msgs. after awhile he get bk to me told me he went for a smoke and tried to call me. again i lied i told him

"my phone was charging in my room"

"Is ok." he answered

"Are you having over time tonight?"

"Yes."

i turn off my laptop and went to my room. i counldnt cry anymore, perhaps my tears have all dried up. i fall asleep again.
_______________________________

i woke up by a text message he sent me thur my phone asking me for a movie tonight. i thought it might be a chance and i really dying to watch the movie too. i accepted the invitation.

i delayed a little as usual even knowing that he was waiting outside of my house. i was asking my sister about direction of getting to the new shopping mall that we will b going later without noticing that he havent had his dinner yet and it's already 9pm.

i showed the wrong direction, i wanted to call my sister but he told me is not a need, we can go somewhr else. i put my cell back into my handbag. i feel how useless am i, i cant even act well in the last date i wanted to cry again but i didnt. and i told myself, is ok, this is the last time of being useless.

i dont know how we ended up in the place we wanna go. he told me we should try our luck see if we could get any tickets. i told better if we go dinner. i was full but i know he was starving and empty. he told me is ok, he can always grab in some cinema's food like hotdogs and etc. when we reached thr, i offered to get the tickets so he got 10 minutes to get his food. i got my tickets and i him with his bloody heavy laptop on his back lining up in subway.

i asked myself, what else should i ask more from him? he was trying his very best to satisfied me. why cant i just be satisfied? he woke up at 7am for work travel from states to states, and had over time in his office yet he still travel all the way to my places from his office just to make me happy. there is a 30 minutes distance from his office to my place. and we went to the wrong road but he didnt not complain at all. i used to think he doesnt even love me, if he does he is just using the wrong way and it's not my way. how could i say something as selfish as this? i didnt satisfied on anything, i was always selfish. all i know was to complain. telling myself how unkind was god to do something like that to me. i shouldnt have told him i like him first now he is not appreciating me because im so easy. but i was wrong. i took everything for granted because he spoilt me and i was used to it by being the youngest in the family so i thought nothing was wrong.

on the way home we were silent. i didnt want to talk, im afraid that i will asked the wrong question again, i afraid i will give him the wrong reaction again. he asked me why am i so sad but he didnt know i was warmed by him just i was really afraid of making mistake and upset him again. he hold my hand with his ice cold left hand while he was driving and he yawned. my heart was tighten, he has eventually became my everything, part of me. his emotion actually affect me. i cant imagine how would my life be without him.

i looked out the window to allow my tears to roll down without him noticing. how on earth will i deserve such a good guy like him? was it a wrong pair? if karma does exist, i have must done a lots of good things in my previous life.

L

p/s : i shall just stop all of my stupid thoughts and love him. i promise myself to be happy everyday just for him. =)

The Devil Guardian

Timeline: 1870's
J
K

"How dare he trapped me here!? he is a devil!" she asked the servant who is changing her clothes.

"Oh no miss. how could you said that Miss Brigitta? after all the duke is still in Indian at the moment." the servant answered quietly and left the room.

"I am going to escape from this terrible place. first of all i need a plan." She thought and she looked around. "I need something that able the run around easily and able me to climb over the huge wall of the castle." she opened up her wardrobe and found a simple dress. she simply packed a feel dresses with her and a novel that she was half way reading. after packing everything she doubled checked it and pushed her luggage under her bed.

"Margaret." She cried and a servant came in "Please inform Mr. Kurt that i need something for the ball next week. If he wouldnt mind he could give me a cheque and i will settle is by myself." Mr Kurt is the lawyer he assigned to fulfills her need while the devil isnt around. "Go now, it's urgent." She repeated

"Yes, Miss." The old servant answered and walked out the room

______________________________________________

"London" She whispered to herself while looking at her train ticket and she smiled happily. "Arh....Help...!" She cried and ran to the man who snatched her train ticket. "Stop.. I say stop at once!" She cried while chasing the man. "return my ticket to me! that all i left! Stop there!"

"Arhh....!" She cried again she knocked on a gentlemen. "im so sorry, im in a hurry...." She wanted to run however the gentlemen hold her arm.

"A young lady like you shouldnt be running around the train station without any grace." The man said

"My..my.. ticket....!" She cried and saw the thief jumped up the train.

"Stop yelling." He ordered

"Do I know you sir?" She asked in a very rude tone

"No." He simply answered

"And why are you stopping me sir?" She asked again and had a clear look of him. He is attractive, he is about 30 she thought. his dark eyes captured her.

He couldnt find an answer he just doesnt like the way she act as a young lady. So, he cleared his throat.

"Sir, the ticket was what i left. I couldnt afford another ticket to London." She said and scooted down.

"Your grace.." A middle aged man whispered "We are about to leave"

"Get her another ticket." The man said and wanted to walked away

"Stop." She said "Where do you think you are going!?" She asked

"I have asked my footman to get you another ticket to London." He answered

"You ought to do that." She said with tears on her cheeks "But.."

He raised his eyebrows when the word "but" came out from her mouth

"But, you shall pay for your unnecessary act." She said

"Well, perhaps you should tell me how can i repay you lost."

"I need 2 months of free accommodation in London, and a closet of beautiful dresses from Paris for my parties and balls. "

"Are you out of your mind?" He said gently adjusting the glove on his right hand

"No. i suppose what im asking for means nothing to you, but a lot to me." She answered

"Why should i pay for your accommodation and dresses?" He asked

"Dresses from Paris. A closet of it." She corrected him

"Yes but and i dont even know who are you." he stared at her. A fairly young girl with a long black hair, a dark blue eyes and a very pale skin. he wont deny that she will be a success in London if she got what she asked from him.

"Who am i is not important, Sir. All you have to know is because of you sir, i missed my train."

"Very well, Mr. Rubin help her on her luggage, she is coming with me." He said

"But your grace..."

"Listen to me." He said

_________________________________

The cabin was very beautiful and grand. she suppose he is not just a rich man, he is somebody like him. she must not tell who is she to him otherwise he might send her back to the horrible place she ran out from.

"Im the Duke of Kent." He said after a sip of champagne "I want to know who are you." he started at her

"I told you..."

"Is not important?" He asked before she could finished her line

"Yes." She answered quietly

"No, im planing to settle you down in the villa i owned in London." He said

"Are you trying to say that im going to stay with you?" She asked

"Yes."

"I cant tell you who am I." She said "Forgive me."

"Form the material of your dress i could tell you are from a fairly rich family. why are you alone? is not right for a young lady like you to travel alone."

"I ran away from the horrible place." She said "They locked up there after papa died."

"So im right.. go on please, i wouldnt want to stay with a stranger."

"My father was an Earl. He passed away and assigned a devil to be my guardian." She said slowly "However the devil is always in india, perhaps the old man had already forget about me. I have stayed there for 2 years, all he did was sending me cheques. I am 19 now, yet im still alone."

"You were neglected and you missed the parties and balls when you are 17?" He asked

"Yes." She nodded.

He was silent. he was thinking about the child of his late friend. how old is her? he better make sure that she did not miss the balls and parties like this young lady. what a pity.

"it would be great if you could tell me who is your guardian?" He asked "I promise i will not send you back"

"I dont know." She said "if i have known, i wont be here alone. i suppose he shouldn't be young since he is a friend of papa."

"What a shame." He said "What's the lawyer's name?" He asked again

"Edison Ku..." She wanted to tell but she stopped

"What's wrong?" He asked

"Why should i believe you?" She asked

"Because you are going to stay with me?" Why shouldn't she believe him?

"Your Grace, you got a telegram from the country." Mr. Rubin walked into the cabin and said

he handed over the telegram "She ran away, wait..." He thought and he stared at Brigitta

"Since you ran away, where did you get the money for yout ticket?" He asked

"I told the lawyer i need money for the ball my friend invited me to, and it will be better if he could give me the cheque."

"How did you ran out of the place you stayed?" he asked again

"I climb over the walls and took a bus here." She said while looking out the window without noticing the changes in his expression "Oh my god! the train is moving...." She cried

"Brigitta " He said and smile

"Yes?" Oh no! how did he knows her name!? she looked at his eyes.

"I suppose im the devil you were talking about." He said and laughed

So what that we are different? chp 7

Morning sun warmly shined into the room of the hospital. A girl was reading on the bed that placed besides the window enjoying the warmness of the sun.



"Hi, how are you feeling today?" Asked Issac



"Erm, i am feeling good." Said Tiffany



"Good." He said dully "you are allowed to leave the hospital today."



"Oh.." She simply answer



"Yup" and he walked away



"Hey!" She cried before he open the door



"Yes?" He asked



"Did you develop my photos?" She asked



"Oh.. I was very busy" He said and added on "I have forgotten about it"



"WHAT!?" She asked



"I am sorry, may be i should return the flash drive to you." He said "and you can develop it yourself"



She went silent. she didnt know what to say, she was very disappointed.



"I got to go, i have lotsa patient are waiting for me." He said and walked away without telling her good bye.



"Issac.." She whisper softly by looking at his back

___________________________________



He was looking at the photos he develop on the day he got the flash drive from Tiffany. It were a set of landscape photos and some of it have his back or shadow on it.


"Since when you interested in photo shooting?" Asked David by snatching the photos on Issac's hand



"Hey, can you be more polite!?" Cried Issac



"Shut Up." Said David "It that you?" He asked by pointing a back of a man in the picture



"Yes." He said



"So you didnt shoot these photos?" Asked David



"Nope." He simply answer



"Hello." Ivan open the door without knocking it



"Can both of you be more polite!?" cried Issac "knock the door before u enter!"



"Do i need to knock and wait for your permission to enter your office!?" Asked Ivan



"What do you think!?"



"Oh Shut Up!" Said Ivan lightly pushed Issac's left cheek



"Hey the photos..." Paused Ivan "I thought you didnt develop it!?"



"How do you know... I .." Issac didnt know how to put it into words



"I visit her before she left the hospital the other day and she told me." Said Ivan "But why?"



"I dont think is right to do so." He simply answer



"Passing her the photos she asked you to develop!?"



"is not as simple as this"



"Oh.. I know.." Said Ivan



"What!?" Asked David "What's going on!?"



"Someone is in love." Answered Ivan



"Oh.. i knew that..." Answered david "Tiffany eh?" teased david



"Both of you sounded like women" said Issac



"he is avoiding her now. but why? he doesnt get it, why do he need to avoid her? the only reason is he is in love. but how?" Issac was in deep thought while Ivan was telling the whole story about Tiffany and him to David



"ISSAC!" Cried David



"what!?" Asked Issac



"Stop avoiding her! just tell her what are you thinking!" Said David



"I dont even know what am i thinking!" Said Issac and his cellphone rang



"Hello" A girl said form the other side of the phone



"Hello."



"Erm.. i need my flash back, some of my assignments i saved in it." Said Tiffany



"Will you be free tomorrow?" He asked



"Yeah.."



"I will see you around 6pm?"



"Ok, but where?"



"I will give you a call and inform you." He answered



"alright then. bye." She said



"Bye"and he hung up the phone



Ivan and David was staring at him



"What!?" He asked



"Tiffany?" Asked Ivan



"YES!" He answered

____________________________________



It was 5.30pm. She was still waiting for his call. She was lying on her bed and wondering should she call him. after a long consideration, she decided to call him at 6.30pm, if he never call. 6.45pm, he did not call her, so as she what she thought just now, she called him



"Hello." She said



"Hey, Tif im busy right now, do you mind if i postponed it?" He asked



"Erm no.. i dont mind give me a call when you are free." She said cheerful

she was lying on her bed with all dressed up and even make up. Eventually, she fall asleep.

Her cellphone rang and it wakes her up

"he..llo.." She said with a high pitched voice

"You just awake?" Issac said from the other side of the phone

"Yeah..." She answered

"I am sorry i cant make it today. the hospital is very busy." He said "I try my best to make it tonight." He said and hung up the phone without saying goodbye

"What's going on?" She asked herself by looking at the stars and moon out of her window.

Reflection

It's a wonderful Sunday afternoon. I sat beside the huge window of the coffee house and looked at the beautiful park. I saw lots of couple were there. They were cycling around the park, fooling around. I thought of him. The person I will never forget. I cried. I cried every time when I thought of him.

He told me, he cant get over what he had went through. He doesn't want me to be a replacement. He doesn't want to cried out the wrong name every time when he wanted to call my name. He doesn't want to bring me to places that I don't like but she likes. He doesn't want me to fake everything out. He wants me to tell him how sick is it every time when he cried out her name instead of mine. He wants me to tell him how much I hate the beach. He wants me to be me. The girl who loves staying at home. The girl who loves to read. But not the girl who is outgoing that loves to club.

After that night, I gave up. In some other words, I am tired of all these. However, I miss those days. Sometimes, I wonder, why cant I just fake everything out to make him happy and loves me? I wonder, what is wrong with me? After so many years, he still cant get rid of them. Am I that horrible?

"knock... knock.."

The sound of someone knocked the window beside me bought me back to the reality. I was stoned by looking at the person. He smiled at me.


Who was it?
A. Her ex-boy friend
B. Another good looking eye candy
C. A little boy with a puppy
D. A person that she knows

It really depends on you. Because I don't know which should I choose. =)

Through The Years

She looked at her hot cappuccino and she thought of what happened to her when she was still in college.

"Am I that wrong?" cried a girl to a man

He didnt answered her but looked at her in away that telling the world how wrong was that girl.

"I just want a chance to explain myself." said the girl with tears on her cheeks

The man remained speechless.

"I didnt ask sorta things from you before. I didnt ask for a credit card. That a present from you to me for my birthday. I didnt ask for a trip to Paris. You asked me to go and told me it's a surprise. I didnt ask for a brand new cellphone. You gave it to me. I am with you not because of money!" She explained

"How can you think that I am a person who be with you just because of your money? Who do you think you are? I don't need a Penny from you. You are a successful in your career I am happy for you but it's none of my business. My dad might not be as rich as you but still I am not like I need your money to continue my living!"

Again he remained speechless

She looked at him helplessly and said:
"What do you want from me? I tried my best to be what you want because I love you. Why are you doing this to me?" She walked away
_____________________________________________

"How stupid was me explaining myself to such a jerk?" She said to herself

She was shocked by what she saw. It's him. The person she just thought of. After so many years, he is still buying coffee from this particular Starbucks and still the same. He will take away his coffee every weekdays before he starts his day.

He didnt notice her and he walked out the coffeshop.

She felt that he cheeks were wet. She knew how much she miss him though this years. The time he helped her out in her last presentation and he gave her the credit card that has their pictures on it. He told her, he spent thousands for that card. He wants her to remember him everytime she used that card. She remember she was so happy and kissed his cheek in front of everyone. She is happy not because of he gave her the credit card but the credit card with their faces on it.

"Sorry I think I left my documents." He walked into the coffee shop again and told one of the staff there.

"What document was that?" asked the staff

"Erm.. should be a piece of paper with a pink heart shaped paperclip." he answered and looking around and he scan around the coffe shop.

"Oh. Miss it's my document." He said and he stoned.

"Oh." She passed it to him and smiled

"Zoe?" He asked softly

"Yes. Is me. The person who robbed you." She joked

"You grew up. you are a pretty women now." He said

"I used to be ugly?" She asked

"No, but you used to be a pretty girl" He said

"That paper clip." She pointed at the pink paper clip. That's what she made for him in her craft class.

He remained speechless for a while and he said "I am out of paper clips."

"A piece of paper doesnt need a paper clip." She said and had sip of her coffee

He didnt answer her but stared at her, and his phone rang.

"Hello." He said "Hey I will be back to the office at 12pm. I have some personal stuff to settle." and he hang up and stared at her again

"Charles, you are not going to stared at me for the whole day." she said "Sit down and you can settle your personal stuff, which is really personal."

"So how are you doing these days?" he asked.

"Go straight to the point. you are not a person that ask a bunch of stupid question before the main question." She teased him "You told me. You dont need an introduction but a good body."

She has to admit she learned a lot from him. He was an extremely intelligent person.

"I dont know what to ask." He said

"Then let me ask." She said "are you married?"

"No. Why will you thought of that?" He said

"You are not young." She said

"So are you?" He asked

"No." She answered and looked at him "Girlfriends?"

"No." He answered "You?"

"I am not a lesbian." She said

"Boyfriend I mean."

"None of your business."

"I want to know"

"Why? I am just a robbery."

"...."

"So you still do think that?"

"....." He made she heart broke into pieces. He still doesnt trust her.

"I thought... never mind. Forget it. I got to go." she rose form her chair

"Hey, mayb we should try on something." He said

"Like what?" She said and tears were on her cheeks

"Dont cry." he kissed her tears away and said "Let's backpack to Cambodia."

"Backpack!?" She was shocked "NO! you must be crazy."

"Why not?"

"You wanna prove that I am not a robbery? For god sake, I don't want to backpack to anywhere. Backpacking is not my cup of tea."

"......" He looked at her helplessly

"Since when you became an idiot?" She asked

"How about let's go Millan?" He teased her

"I have an idea. Since you dont trust. We go Milan and we stay in a decent hotel. And we limited our self only use a certain amount of money per-day. Smart eh?"

"You always thought of something expensive but sounds cheap." he smiled and kissed her forehead.

"Because I consider about you. You are too old for backpacking." She smiled

"You are still the same."

"Same? No I am not. I dont have a successful and good looking boy friend anymore."

"But a successful and good looking old man is trying to woo you. isnt that interesting?"

"Sounds cool. When he died i can inherit all his money." She said

"Then you have to think of a plan to kill him on the wedding night."

"Wedding? I thought he is just trying to woo me?"

"Because someone told him at his age he should be married."

"Is it? Should I thank that person?"

"No before you killed the old man."

"But I find that, the old man is very interesting. I think i am in love with him. I dont feel like killing him."

"Then love him." He whispered to her.




P/s: 1.Why Zoe? I am running out of names. (something that only momoko knows.)
2. I find that adding colors on the converstation is easier to read (like what momoko did). copy cat a bit lah...

Turn back

"Don't touch me." She said harshly without turning back her head

"You are so rude Lexie" He said and sat down the chair beside her

"Keep quiet" She felt annoyed when he started to talk

"Fine!" He said

7 years ago they were a pair of couple. No ones know that they were together, people used to think that they were best friends.

"Lexie can you come here for a moment?" A women cried and Lexie walked over without looking at him.

He looked at her and he thought how pretty was she? A small heart shaped face, fair skin and huge eyes. He smiled and thought how stupid was he to left her. He was only 31 and she was 19 when they broke off. He still remember the little girl who used to woo him by using lots of stupid and hilarious method. Such as lying to him that she was in an car accident, waited for him the cafe for few hours just wanted to bump into him. 7 years? Time is really flying.he is 38 now and the little girl in front of him is not a little girl anymore she is a women, a beautiful and attractive women.

"What are you doing here?" She asked

"Lance!" She cried

"What?" He was shocked.

"What were you thinking?" She asked

"Nothing." He replied

"What are you doing here?" She asked again

"Chilling?" He is here because he wanted to see her!

"CHILLING?" She asked and widen her eyes

"....." He didn't answer

"You know what? I am busy." She said coldly

"Lexie, we have to talk." He said

"About what?" What do he still want to talk about? About how much he loves the girl before they started a relationship? Or he felt so sorry, he wants her to forgive him? Or he is too mature for her, he hope she understands? Why is he coming back into her life? It has been 7 years after the broke off. She is happy with her life now. She has a boyfriend which is loyal and cute. Why?

"About us." He said calmly

"No. Lance I am sorry. No." She bagged "Please, is not a need. I am happy with my life now."

"Why? Give me a chance please!"

"NO! I say no means no! Is enough! I don't want to have a wonderful boy friend like you. No!" He was so wonderful. She remembered the first time they met, she was melted by his charming smile. He was so handsome and tall. He eyes was so amazing, she can feel that they were actually communicating with her. Besides that, he was so successful in his business. He is just wonderful!

"Lexie please. Just one more."

"No! Don't you know that I am in a serious relationship right now? You know him, don't you? Please give me a break." She said and she felt that her cheeks were wet by her tears

He didn't say anything in fact he hugged her

"Go away please. I don't wan to be hurt again. It really hurted when you told me how important was her. Please, leave me alone." She bagged

"Listen. I was wrong. I didn't realise how much I love you."

"NO! Please. You just felt annoyed when you noticed that I am getting married with Thomas soon."

"....." He didn't reply anything he kissed her forehead and he said "Lexie, I am not going to lose you again. I admit I realised how important was you when you told me you are marrying to that Thomas soon. But I used to tell you I want our relationship back don't you remember? Just that you thought I was joking. And I thought that You wont be marrying him!"

"I am not going to talk about this now. You go home and rest and think about it okay? " He said and he left
____________________________________________________

"We were happy?" She asked her self.

She was sitting in a swing and thinking of what they used to do in the weekends. He used to fetch her with his bicycle every morning to the bakery to have their breakfast. How sweet was it? She turned around and she saw Lance sitting on a bench alone and smoking. He seems to be very lonely and sad. Is it because of her? She laughed herself being stupid. How can it because of her? He is so perfect. He can get any women he wants. She was just a nobody to him. He wanted her back just because he felt annoyed to lose.

____________________________________________________

It has been 3 months after she saw him in the children's playground. She call the wedding off after that night. She doesn't want to be married while she was still thinking of another person. She has to admit how much she was in love with him. Although it has been 7 years. However she still can felt the pain every time she saw him.

"Lexie, Lance is here." A women said

"Oh please send him in." Perhaps she should just face him neutrally. Instead of asking him to leave every time he comes.

"Hey." She greeted

"Hey." He said

"I called the wedding off."

"Yea. I know" And he smiled

"You are such an evil." She said

"Thomas came to me yesterday." He said "He asked me why did you call the wedding off."

"Oh so what did you said?" She can sensed he told him something evil

"What do you think?" He asked

"Something evil i suppose."

"I told him, you thought that he is a gay." and laughed aloud

"What the hell!? Are you mad?" She asked and she laughed
She have to say it's funny!

"Yea, madly in love with you."

"How could you tell him that!? You hurt him you know?" She asked

"Yea, he was really shocked and he looked at me like WHAT!?." he laughed again

"Oh My God." She said

"Yes are you looking for me? I am your god." He said

"Is not funny." She said

They silent for a few seconds

"I thought you will scold me and ask me to leave." He said

"I wanted to, but isn't that pointless? Which I know Mrs.Wendy will still let you in?"

"Yea." He drank her coffee

"That's mine!" She said

"I don't mind."

"I mind. Of course you don't it is not yours."

"You should thank me."

"Why should I? Thank you for telling Thomas I thought he was a gay or what?"

"If we didn't broke off, you wont be so successful in your career." He said

"Ha..Ha.." Although she sounds like doesn't agree with him but she knows it's true

"This is for you." He gave her a box.

"A ring? Oh please!" She threw it back to him

"Why? Since now you are single. And I am single too." He said

"So many people out there are single? You suppose me to marry all of them?"

"You can if it is legal..." He said

"You know what? Get lost!" She said

"No.. Come with me I show you something." He said

"NO! Go away!"

"I will go if you come along."

"No!!! Don't you get it? I don't like you!"

"Oh please. trying to lie in front of me?"

"Where will you be bringing me?"

"Somewhere fun?" He raised his eyebrow

"Fun? How fun?"

"Just come!" He ordered
______________________________________________________

"Lexie." He said

"Yes?"

"What was the thing you wanted the most while you was 19?" He knows it's him

"Money?" She doesn't wan to tell the truth

"I am thinking of giving something you wanted the most at that moment."

"Oh really?" Bullshit

"Lexie. I love you." He said "I know I yelled at you that day. However did I say that I love her? No! I didn't. You are the one who thought of it. "

"I am too young for you." She said

"Is it?" He asked "I remember once someone told me age doesn't matter her at all."

"It's matter me now."

"Are you really so in love with Thomas?" He asked and he stopped his car at the road side

"No." She said "Just that I haven't found the right one"

"Look at me!" He said "I am tired and too old for all this chasing, Lexie please. Give me a chance."

She didn't answered

"Please..." He sounded very helpless. He doesn't know what else can he do.

"Old man listen." She said "If you want a chance? Make me feel like is worth to give you one!"

"How?" He is really too old for this

She stared at him and said "depends on a expensive way or a cheap way."

"Which one is easier?"

"Expensive" Money can solve everything right?

"How?" Can't she just tell?

"You expect me to plan it and just send the bill to you?" She asked

"It will be lovely of you could do that." He said "Or you want a credit card?" Will that be easier?

"I give up." She said "Give me that bloody ring!"

He passed her the ring and he said

"Do I look like that stupid?" He asked "I am going to make you feel like is worth to give me everything." He kissed her ears and continue.

"I am bringing you to Paris." He smiled

Birthday Story

"I am leaving now." Said a lady "Oh by the way, Happy Birthday."

"Birthday!?" The man was shock and looked at the calendar in front of him and he smiled "I glad you remember that. I almost forgot about it."

"It's your birthday boss." Said the lady while she is arranging the file on his table.

"Aha.. Birthday." He tease himself

"Yea. It's your Birthday." She said "I am leaving now, I have to pick up my son from his tuition class."

"Oh right, Bye." He said and he lighted his cigarette.

"Birthday!? You must be kidding." He told him self. He looked at his watch "Maybe I should go for a walk."
________________________________________________________
Night market is an event happens once or twice a week in most South-East Asia countries. This is a place that people used to sell vegetables, food and some cheap stuff like clothes and even plants.

"Hey, I would like to have a packet of Sugarcane juice." He said to the old man who is selling
He felt that someone was looking at him and he looked around and he found a very lovely girl is staring at him in a way that no one stared at him before. He gave her a very heart melting smile and turned away.

"Oh My God! Look at him! He made me melt." She told herself. It was so packed in the night market she wanted to walk to him and greet but she failed. He left before she reach him. This was the first time she wanted to go for someone she adores. She used to just look and do no action but this time it was different.

"Who was that girl?" He asked himself while he was driving. He wonder do he knows her? He cant stop wondering who was she and why was she staring at him in such a different way. Her huge eyes and pale look just cant get off of his mind. He thought of her every moment, she was like something and someone that means something to him.

"Sir..SIR!" The baristas cried.

"Yea!?" He was thinking of her again!

"Your coffee is ready." The baristas said

"Oh thank you." he grabbed the coffee and a girl cried

"Hey! That's mine."

"Oh!" Now he noticed it wasn't the hot latte he ordered but it was something cold "I am so sorry! I didn't notice that it was Iced..." He was stoned when he saw the girl who cried. Now he can see her clearly. How lovely was her. Her huge eyes on her tiny heart shaped face.

"Oh My God! It is you!" She cried "Oh you probably don't remember me ..."

"No, I do remember you." He said before she finish her line

"Oh..." She was shocked by his words. What!? He remember me!? He actually remember me!? Since today was her birthday, does this consider a present from the god?

"So, what are you doing in the shopping mall so early in the morning?" He asked after a few seconds of silent.

"Oh my college is just beside the mall." She answered "Oh! I am going to be late! I got to go. You know what? Maybe we can catch up tomorrow at the same time." and she rushed away

__________________________________________________________

"You look happy today, boss." Said the lady "Or I should say you look delight"

"Oh Really?" He smiled "So who is dying today?"

"Doctor there is an emergency coming in two minutes." Said a nurse walked into his office

He didn't not answer a word, he quickly wore his white doctor's coat and rush to the ER(emergency room).

"A pregnant women, aged 37." Said the nurse while they are rushing to the ER

"37!? What a dangerous age to have a baby!" He said

"Okay people, it's showtime." He said

"Her water is broken" Said the nurse

"Well, lets do it." He said "Okay you will be just fine. you baby will be coming out now. All you have to do is lie back and push."

"OK now push whenever you are ready." He said "Push... push...push.. that's it... push..you are doing great.. push...OK now one final push and that's it!" He carried the baby and he said again "Oh it's a baby boy."

"Doctor, there is another emergency in room 4." Said the nurse, he quickly passed the baby boy to another doctor and rush to another room.

"You know what? I am kinda tired working in the ER." He said while he is in a surgery.

"This is life man!" Said the other surgeon. "Guess what? I threw 25 shirts and 3 pants yesterday."

"Oh I haven't pack mine." He replied

"Why do you throw it?" Asked a trainee.

"Because it all stained with blood!" The surgeon said "You know it's really sick when you changed from the ugly green surgery clothe to your owns and ready to go home and Emergencies came and you have to do everything with your own clothes."

"Yea.. I know." He said "That day a old women puked blood on my brad new Emporio Armani. I was like what the hell!"

"Okay we are done here." The surgeon said "Let's go for coffee"

"Lovely!" He answered "You*pointing at the trainee*, clear up this mess, as you know we are going for coffee"

"Dude don't feel sad." Said the surgeon "When we were a trainee those old hacks did that to us too."
______________________________________________________

"Iced Mocha please" She said to the cashier

"Hot Latte please" He said right after she ordered

"One bill?" Asked the cashier

"Yes" He answered

"Oh no!" She defended

"No make it one bill." He said "Let me buy you a cup of coffee"

"Oh I don't know it was you."She turned back and she saw his handsome face

"Is okay. So are you rushing today?" He asked

"No."

"Then please sit, I have a question that i would like to ask you."

"What?"

"That day in the night market. Why did stare at me that way?" He asked

"Oww... Do I have to answer that?" her cheek blushed

"Oh of course"

"I don't know. Maybe because you were too attractive"

"Were?"

"Oh No, you are still attractive now."

"Is it?"

"Yea of course" She said quickly

His phone rang and he said

"I got to go now. May be I can buy you something more than a cup of coffee tomorrow." he smiled and walked away

p/s I just wanna say Xinyi, happy bday!

Love is not Impossible

She was looking at the ceiling of her room. Her brain was so blank,

"Am I awake yet!?" She asked herself "Do I have class today?" She was so puzzled by her college timetable. The timetable of her current semester is a totally mess. Everyday when she wakes up, she have to think did she wake up in the right time, or is she late for class. She couldn't forget once she thought that she was late and she rushed to the bathroom and only she remember she has no class on that particular day.

She walked in to the kitchen with a knee length shorts and a T-shirt. She saw a man was sitting in the kitchen with a laptop. She ignored him and poured herself a cup of plain water.

"Morning." He greeted with his deep and sexy voice without looking at her.

"Morning." She said dully.

She sat down on the chair that opposite him and stared at him for a few seconds.

Finally he raised his head and asked "May I help you?"

"Breakfast?" She asked

"Aren't you schooling today?" He asked

"I suppose I am not." She answered

"What do you mean by you suppose? Shouldn't you be sure of that?" He asked with a wicked smile

"You know why!" She said

"Alright then." He answered

He is one of the people that worked in her house. They were having a project, and they rent her house for 3 months.

She likes him a lot when the first day she saw him. He captured her with his pair of huge pupils and his thin and sexy lips. However, she knows, it's impossible for both of them to start a relationship. They were different kinda of people, they are just like a chicken and a duck which both are in the bird family but they are different. He is from somewhere she have no idea about it, he is a mature man which is very different from her. She is a girl that is still curious about the world, a girl who still in college.
________________________________________________

As usual she wanted to walk into the kitchen and assuming he will be sitting there alone but she saw something different. A very sexy and attractive women was sitting beside him. They looks like a pair of couple. She was so sad and she didnt walk into the kitchen instead she walk back to her room.

"Why am I so stupid!?" She asked herself "I should know this will be happened." She didnt cry but instead she changed her clothes and went to a cafe that located in a hospital that near her college. That cafe was a place for her to hide herself from others when she is sad or busy.

After that day, she started to avoid him. She doesn't wants to be hurt anymore. Everytime she see him, she felt the pain.

"Hey." He greeted when he saw her wearing shoes preparing to go college

"Hi." She acted like nothing happened.

"Hey." He repeated again

"Yea. What's up?" She asked. Please get away from her.

"Erm, I though you don't have morning class today." He said dully

"........." She didnt answered instead she walked away

He couldn't explain the feeling when she just walked away without an answer. He felt very unhappy but who is she to him? She is just a little girl right? Love!? No, no, no! It will be madness if he is in love with such a young girl.

"Ouch!" She cried when a person knocked her down

"Oh I am sorry." He apologized.

"Oh god! My work." She cried

"Oh My God." He was so scared when he saw more than 500 pieces of paper are all over the floor.

"Hey, I don't mean to knocked you down. I was..." He tried to explain

"Is okay." She kneel down and pick the papers up.

"No, let me help you." He kneel down too

"No. Is really ok." She rejected his offer

"Why!?" He asked "What is wrong with you these days?"

"Nothing is wrong. Just that I think I can handle this by myself." She answered

"By yourself!? Don't be crazy!" He cried

She threw all the paper she picked up and said "Since you like to help that much. Pick everything up and rearrange it!" After saying that she walked up to her room.

She was so tired, she bathed and she forgotten everything. She felt asleep until midnight she went to the kitchen for some water and she saw him sitting on the hall alone arranging the papers. She felt so guilty and walked to him

"You know what!? Actually this paper are not important. Leave it to me." She said softly. Her heart was broke when she saw how tired was he, the red veins on his eyes and yet he still arranging the papers.

He didnt answer instead he asked "What is wrong with you these days?"

She didnt answer, she rose and walked to the kitchen. She tears were on her cheeks, she doesn't know how to answer him.

"Why are you crying? Please tell me what had I done" He said

"Is not your fault. Sorry." She said

"No tell me. I want to know!" He cried

"Is me! I am dumb I am in love with you." She said "I know is impossible for us to be together. I am just dumb. Please get away from me."

He was stoned for a few seconds and he hugged her and he whispered
"Why is it impossible?" Actually he knew why she thought of that, because they are different.

"........." She was silent

"I thought of that too. However, we just have to cop with it my dear." He whispered

"I don't know" She said

He kissed her forehead and whispered again

"Go to bed and let me finish the papers. Okay?" He said

"No, Those paper I bought back wanted to send to the recycle center. Is not a need to arrange it." She said

"What!?" He stared at her

"I thought you will ignore me. I didnt know that you actually...." She said "Oh please don't be mad. I was so angry of myself just now."

"You silly girl. Do you know how tired was me?" He asked

"I know. I felt like my heart was broken when I saw you alone in the hall." She said

"Yea.. You should. I am tired now. And no point for me to leave now. I think I have to sleep at your hall." He said

"I guess so. You need blanket?" She asked

"Yea. "

She took a blanket for him and he said

"I know what you saw that day, she is just my client." He said

"Oh.. I didnt see anything." She lied

"You saw because I saw you" He said and he smiled