It's a wonderful Sunday afternoon. I sat beside the huge window of the coffee house and looked at the beautiful park. I saw lots of couple were there. They were cycling around the park, fooling around. I thought of him. The person I will never forget. I cried. I cried every time when I thought of him.
He told me, he cant get over what he had went through. He doesn't want me to be a replacement. He doesn't want to cried out the wrong name every time when he wanted to call my name. He doesn't want to bring me to places that I don't like but she likes. He doesn't want me to fake everything out. He wants me to tell him how sick is it every time when he cried out her name instead of mine. He wants me to tell him how much I hate the beach. He wants me to be me. The girl who loves staying at home. The girl who loves to read. But not the girl who is outgoing that loves to club.
After that night, I gave up. In some other words, I am tired of all these. However, I miss those days. Sometimes, I wonder, why cant I just fake everything out to make him happy and loves me? I wonder, what is wrong with me? After so many years, he still cant get rid of them. Am I that horrible?
"knock... knock.."
The sound of someone knocked the window beside me bought me back to the reality. I was stoned by looking at the person. He smiled at me.
Who was it?
A. Her ex-boy friend
B. Another good looking eye candy
C. A little boy with a puppy
D. A person that she knows
It really depends on you. Because I don't know which should I choose. =)
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Through The Years
She looked at her hot cappuccino and she thought of what happened to her when she was still in college.
"Am I that wrong?" cried a girl to a man
He didnt answered her but looked at her in away that telling the world how wrong was that girl.
"I just want a chance to explain myself." said the girl with tears on her cheeks
The man remained speechless.
"I didnt ask sorta things from you before. I didnt ask for a credit card. That a present from you to me for my birthday. I didnt ask for a trip to Paris. You asked me to go and told me it's a surprise. I didnt ask for a brand new cellphone. You gave it to me. I am with you not because of money!" She explained
"How can you think that I am a person who be with you just because of your money? Who do you think you are? I don't need a Penny from you. You are a successful in your career I am happy for you but it's none of my business. My dad might not be as rich as you but still I am not like I need your money to continue my living!"
Again he remained speechless
She looked at him helplessly and said:
"What do you want from me? I tried my best to be what you want because I love you. Why are you doing this to me?" She walked away
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"How stupid was me explaining myself to such a jerk?" She said to herself
She was shocked by what she saw. It's him. The person she just thought of. After so many years, he is still buying coffee from this particular Starbucks and still the same. He will take away his coffee every weekdays before he starts his day.
He didnt notice her and he walked out the coffeshop.
She felt that he cheeks were wet. She knew how much she miss him though this years. The time he helped her out in her last presentation and he gave her the credit card that has their pictures on it. He told her, he spent thousands for that card. He wants her to remember him everytime she used that card. She remember she was so happy and kissed his cheek in front of everyone. She is happy not because of he gave her the credit card but the credit card with their faces on it.
"Sorry I think I left my documents." He walked into the coffee shop again and told one of the staff there.
"What document was that?" asked the staff
"Erm.. should be a piece of paper with a pink heart shaped paperclip." he answered and looking around and he scan around the coffe shop.
"Oh. Miss it's my document." He said and he stoned.
"Oh." She passed it to him and smiled
"Zoe?" He asked softly
"Yes. Is me. The person who robbed you." She joked
"You grew up. you are a pretty women now." He said
"I used to be ugly?" She asked
"No, but you used to be a pretty girl" He said
"That paper clip." She pointed at the pink paper clip. That's what she made for him in her craft class.
He remained speechless for a while and he said "I am out of paper clips."
"A piece of paper doesnt need a paper clip." She said and had sip of her coffee
He didnt answer her but stared at her, and his phone rang.
"Hello." He said "Hey I will be back to the office at 12pm. I have some personal stuff to settle." and he hang up and stared at her again
"Charles, you are not going to stared at me for the whole day." she said "Sit down and you can settle your personal stuff, which is really personal."
"So how are you doing these days?" he asked.
"Go straight to the point. you are not a person that ask a bunch of stupid question before the main question." She teased him "You told me. You dont need an introduction but a good body."
She has to admit she learned a lot from him. He was an extremely intelligent person.
"I dont know what to ask." He said
"Then let me ask." She said "are you married?"
"No. Why will you thought of that?" He said
"You are not young." She said
"So are you?" He asked
"No." She answered and looked at him "Girlfriends?"
"No." He answered "You?"
"I am not a lesbian." She said
"Boyfriend I mean."
"None of your business."
"I want to know"
"Why? I am just a robbery."
"...."
"So you still do think that?"
"....." He made she heart broke into pieces. He still doesnt trust her.
"I thought... never mind. Forget it. I got to go." she rose form her chair
"Hey, mayb we should try on something." He said
"Like what?" She said and tears were on her cheeks
"Dont cry." he kissed her tears away and said "Let's backpack to Cambodia."
"Backpack!?" She was shocked "NO! you must be crazy."
"Why not?"
"You wanna prove that I am not a robbery? For god sake, I don't want to backpack to anywhere. Backpacking is not my cup of tea."
"......" He looked at her helplessly
"Since when you became an idiot?" She asked
"How about let's go Millan?" He teased her
"I have an idea. Since you dont trust. We go Milan and we stay in a decent hotel. And we limited our self only use a certain amount of money per-day. Smart eh?"
"You always thought of something expensive but sounds cheap." he smiled and kissed her forehead.
"Because I consider about you. You are too old for backpacking." She smiled
"You are still the same."
"Same? No I am not. I dont have a successful and good looking boy friend anymore."
"But a successful and good looking old man is trying to woo you. isnt that interesting?"
"Sounds cool. When he died i can inherit all his money." She said
"Then you have to think of a plan to kill him on the wedding night."
"Wedding? I thought he is just trying to woo me?"
"Because someone told him at his age he should be married."
"Is it? Should I thank that person?"
"No before you killed the old man."
"But I find that, the old man is very interesting. I think i am in love with him. I dont feel like killing him."
"Then love him." He whispered to her.
P/s: 1.Why Zoe? I am running out of names. (something that only momoko knows.)
2. I find that adding colors on the converstation is easier to read (like what momoko did). copy cat a bit lah...
"Am I that wrong?" cried a girl to a man
He didnt answered her but looked at her in away that telling the world how wrong was that girl.
"I just want a chance to explain myself." said the girl with tears on her cheeks
The man remained speechless.
"I didnt ask sorta things from you before. I didnt ask for a credit card. That a present from you to me for my birthday. I didnt ask for a trip to Paris. You asked me to go and told me it's a surprise. I didnt ask for a brand new cellphone. You gave it to me. I am with you not because of money!" She explained
"How can you think that I am a person who be with you just because of your money? Who do you think you are? I don't need a Penny from you. You are a successful in your career I am happy for you but it's none of my business. My dad might not be as rich as you but still I am not like I need your money to continue my living!"
Again he remained speechless
She looked at him helplessly and said:
"What do you want from me? I tried my best to be what you want because I love you. Why are you doing this to me?" She walked away
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"How stupid was me explaining myself to such a jerk?" She said to herself
She was shocked by what she saw. It's him. The person she just thought of. After so many years, he is still buying coffee from this particular Starbucks and still the same. He will take away his coffee every weekdays before he starts his day.
He didnt notice her and he walked out the coffeshop.
She felt that he cheeks were wet. She knew how much she miss him though this years. The time he helped her out in her last presentation and he gave her the credit card that has their pictures on it. He told her, he spent thousands for that card. He wants her to remember him everytime she used that card. She remember she was so happy and kissed his cheek in front of everyone. She is happy not because of he gave her the credit card but the credit card with their faces on it.
"Sorry I think I left my documents." He walked into the coffee shop again and told one of the staff there.
"What document was that?" asked the staff
"Erm.. should be a piece of paper with a pink heart shaped paperclip." he answered and looking around and he scan around the coffe shop.
"Oh. Miss it's my document." He said and he stoned.
"Oh." She passed it to him and smiled
"Zoe?" He asked softly
"Yes. Is me. The person who robbed you." She joked
"You grew up. you are a pretty women now." He said
"I used to be ugly?" She asked
"No, but you used to be a pretty girl" He said
"That paper clip." She pointed at the pink paper clip. That's what she made for him in her craft class.
He remained speechless for a while and he said "I am out of paper clips."
"A piece of paper doesnt need a paper clip." She said and had sip of her coffee
He didnt answer her but stared at her, and his phone rang.
"Hello." He said "Hey I will be back to the office at 12pm. I have some personal stuff to settle." and he hang up and stared at her again
"Charles, you are not going to stared at me for the whole day." she said "Sit down and you can settle your personal stuff, which is really personal."
"So how are you doing these days?" he asked.
"Go straight to the point. you are not a person that ask a bunch of stupid question before the main question." She teased him "You told me. You dont need an introduction but a good body."
She has to admit she learned a lot from him. He was an extremely intelligent person.
"I dont know what to ask." He said
"Then let me ask." She said "are you married?"
"No. Why will you thought of that?" He said
"You are not young." She said
"So are you?" He asked
"No." She answered and looked at him "Girlfriends?"
"No." He answered "You?"
"I am not a lesbian." She said
"Boyfriend I mean."
"None of your business."
"I want to know"
"Why? I am just a robbery."
"...."
"So you still do think that?"
"....." He made she heart broke into pieces. He still doesnt trust her.
"I thought... never mind. Forget it. I got to go." she rose form her chair
"Hey, mayb we should try on something." He said
"Like what?" She said and tears were on her cheeks
"Dont cry." he kissed her tears away and said "Let's backpack to Cambodia."
"Backpack!?" She was shocked "NO! you must be crazy."
"Why not?"
"You wanna prove that I am not a robbery? For god sake, I don't want to backpack to anywhere. Backpacking is not my cup of tea."
"......" He looked at her helplessly
"Since when you became an idiot?" She asked
"How about let's go Millan?" He teased her
"I have an idea. Since you dont trust. We go Milan and we stay in a decent hotel. And we limited our self only use a certain amount of money per-day. Smart eh?"
"You always thought of something expensive but sounds cheap." he smiled and kissed her forehead.
"Because I consider about you. You are too old for backpacking." She smiled
"You are still the same."
"Same? No I am not. I dont have a successful and good looking boy friend anymore."
"But a successful and good looking old man is trying to woo you. isnt that interesting?"
"Sounds cool. When he died i can inherit all his money." She said
"Then you have to think of a plan to kill him on the wedding night."
"Wedding? I thought he is just trying to woo me?"
"Because someone told him at his age he should be married."
"Is it? Should I thank that person?"
"No before you killed the old man."
"But I find that, the old man is very interesting. I think i am in love with him. I dont feel like killing him."
"Then love him." He whispered to her.
P/s: 1.Why Zoe? I am running out of names. (something that only momoko knows.)
2. I find that adding colors on the converstation is easier to read (like what momoko did). copy cat a bit lah...
Sunday, September 28, 2008
resemblance
"Vanilla Latte, venti. Please."
"okay. Anything else for you miss?"
"Hmm.. With this cherry lollipop. please."
"okay. That will be a total of 13 Dollar and 40 cents.Please collect your coffee there in a short while. Thank you."
"Thanks."
"Good morning, Sir. Can I help you?"
As I approach to the other side, suddenly there's a very familiar scent around the atmosphere.
"Vanilla Latte, Venti and erm.. slice of Blueberry cheesecake... Please."
I stopped and turned back. I couldn't help but to stop and stare at the gentlemen because I couldn't believe there is actually someone who look so alike. From his scent, his dressing, his hair and the way he order his meal. He reminds me everything of you.
He must have felt my stare and turned to me.
"Good morning. It's a lovely day to start with a cup of Vanilla Latte isn't it?"
"Good morning, well yes."
"Miss, your vanilla latte is ready." said the waiter
"Oh, erm. I have to make a move. Enjoy your breakfast. Bye."
I couldn't believe that all of our memories actually flashing in my mind.
"I saw you talking to that hot gentlemen there. Interested?"
"You must be joking, Claire. Come on let's go."
"Well, then Why are you staring at him. I saw that, don't you deny."
"Who said I'm going to deny. Well, that's because he have a resemblance to someone I know... for long time."
"Maybe that's the person you know?"
"Absolutely not. he's not a white."
"Ahh, so it's him? You still miss him, don't you?"
"..."
I gave her an uncertain smile and take a sip of my coffee. We had not contacting each other for 8 years and I wonder where and How is he now. Do I miss him? I don't even dare to ask. But I asked myself today. You still miss him? The answer is
"Claire. You know what?"
"yea?"
"I miss him a lot but I don't want him back."
note: The story is inspired by my cousin. =)
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This is another version of ending for cindy:
I gave her an uncertain smile and take a sip of my coffee. We had not contacting each other for 8 years and I wonder where and How is he now. I've done too much thinking and couldn't help it. Do I miss him? I don't even dare to ask. But I asked myself today. You still miss him? I finally get the answer
"Claire.."
"yea?"
"I miss him a lot and there's no one to replace him."
people, please give feedback on which ending you prefer yea? =)
Monday, August 25, 2008
Turn back
"Don't touch me." She said harshly without turning back her head
"You are so rude Lexie" He said and sat down the chair beside her
"Keep quiet" She felt annoyed when he started to talk
"Fine!" He said
7 years ago they were a pair of couple. No ones know that they were together, people used to think that they were best friends.
"Lexie can you come here for a moment?" A women cried and Lexie walked over without looking at him.
He looked at her and he thought how pretty was she? A small heart shaped face, fair skin and huge eyes. He smiled and thought how stupid was he to left her. He was only 31 and she was 19 when they broke off. He still remember the little girl who used to woo him by using lots of stupid and hilarious method. Such as lying to him that she was in an car accident, waited for him the cafe for few hours just wanted to bump into him. 7 years? Time is really flying.he is 38 now and the little girl in front of him is not a little girl anymore she is a women, a beautiful and attractive women.
"What are you doing here?" She asked
"Lance!" She cried
"What?" He was shocked.
"What were you thinking?" She asked
"Nothing." He replied
"What are you doing here?" She asked again
"Chilling?" He is here because he wanted to see her!
"CHILLING?" She asked and widen her eyes
"....." He didn't answer
"You know what? I am busy." She said coldly
"Lexie, we have to talk." He said
"About what?" What do he still want to talk about? About how much he loves the girl before they started a relationship? Or he felt so sorry, he wants her to forgive him? Or he is too mature for her, he hope she understands? Why is he coming back into her life? It has been 7 years after the broke off. She is happy with her life now. She has a boyfriend which is loyal and cute. Why?
"About us." He said calmly
"No. Lance I am sorry. No." She bagged "Please, is not a need. I am happy with my life now."
"Why? Give me a chance please!"
"NO! I say no means no! Is enough! I don't want to have a wonderful boy friend like you. No!" He was so wonderful. She remembered the first time they met, she was melted by his charming smile. He was so handsome and tall. He eyes was so amazing, she can feel that they were actually communicating with her. Besides that, he was so successful in his business. He is just wonderful!
"Lexie please. Just one more."
"No! Don't you know that I am in a serious relationship right now? You know him, don't you? Please give me a break." She said and she felt that her cheeks were wet by her tears
He didn't say anything in fact he hugged her
"Go away please. I don't wan to be hurt again. It really hurted when you told me how important was her. Please, leave me alone." She bagged
"Listen. I was wrong. I didn't realise how much I love you."
"NO! Please. You just felt annoyed when you noticed that I am getting married with Thomas soon."
"....." He didn't reply anything he kissed her forehead and he said "Lexie, I am not going to lose you again. I admit I realised how important was you when you told me you are marrying to that Thomas soon. But I used to tell you I want our relationship back don't you remember? Just that you thought I was joking. And I thought that You wont be marrying him!"
"I am not going to talk about this now. You go home and rest and think about it okay? " He said and he left
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"We were happy?" She asked her self.
She was sitting in a swing and thinking of what they used to do in the weekends. He used to fetch her with his bicycle every morning to the bakery to have their breakfast. How sweet was it? She turned around and she saw Lance sitting on a bench alone and smoking. He seems to be very lonely and sad. Is it because of her? She laughed herself being stupid. How can it because of her? He is so perfect. He can get any women he wants. She was just a nobody to him. He wanted her back just because he felt annoyed to lose.
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It has been 3 months after she saw him in the children's playground. She call the wedding off after that night. She doesn't want to be married while she was still thinking of another person. She has to admit how much she was in love with him. Although it has been 7 years. However she still can felt the pain every time she saw him.
"Lexie, Lance is here." A women said
"Oh please send him in." Perhaps she should just face him neutrally. Instead of asking him to leave every time he comes.
"Hey." She greeted
"Hey." He said
"I called the wedding off."
"Yea. I know" And he smiled
"You are such an evil." She said
"Thomas came to me yesterday." He said "He asked me why did you call the wedding off."
"Oh so what did you said?" She can sensed he told him something evil
"What do you think?" He asked
"Something evil i suppose."
"I told him, you thought that he is a gay." and laughed aloud
"What the hell!? Are you mad?" She asked and she laughed
She have to say it's funny!
"Yea, madly in love with you."
"How could you tell him that!? You hurt him you know?" She asked
"Yea, he was really shocked and he looked at me like WHAT!?." he laughed again
"Oh My God." She said
"Yes are you looking for me? I am your god." He said
"Is not funny." She said
They silent for a few seconds
"I thought you will scold me and ask me to leave." He said
"I wanted to, but isn't that pointless? Which I know Mrs.Wendy will still let you in?"
"Yea." He drank her coffee
"That's mine!" She said
"I don't mind."
"I mind. Of course you don't it is not yours."
"You should thank me."
"Why should I? Thank you for telling Thomas I thought he was a gay or what?"
"If we didn't broke off, you wont be so successful in your career." He said
"Ha..Ha.." Although she sounds like doesn't agree with him but she knows it's true
"This is for you." He gave her a box.
"A ring? Oh please!" She threw it back to him
"Why? Since now you are single. And I am single too." He said
"So many people out there are single? You suppose me to marry all of them?"
"You can if it is legal..." He said
"You know what? Get lost!" She said
"No.. Come with me I show you something." He said
"NO! Go away!"
"I will go if you come along."
"No!!! Don't you get it? I don't like you!"
"Oh please. trying to lie in front of me?"
"Where will you be bringing me?"
"Somewhere fun?" He raised his eyebrow
"Fun? How fun?"
"Just come!" He ordered
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"Lexie." He said
"Yes?"
"What was the thing you wanted the most while you was 19?" He knows it's him
"Money?" She doesn't wan to tell the truth
"I am thinking of giving something you wanted the most at that moment."
"Oh really?" Bullshit
"Lexie. I love you." He said "I know I yelled at you that day. However did I say that I love her? No! I didn't. You are the one who thought of it. "
"I am too young for you." She said
"Is it?" He asked "I remember once someone told me age doesn't matter her at all."
"It's matter me now."
"Are you really so in love with Thomas?" He asked and he stopped his car at the road side
"No." She said "Just that I haven't found the right one"
"Look at me!" He said "I am tired and too old for all this chasing, Lexie please. Give me a chance."
She didn't answered
"Please..." He sounded very helpless. He doesn't know what else can he do.
"Old man listen." She said "If you want a chance? Make me feel like is worth to give you one!"
"How?" He is really too old for this
She stared at him and said "depends on a expensive way or a cheap way."
"Which one is easier?"
"Expensive" Money can solve everything right?
"How?" Can't she just tell?
"You expect me to plan it and just send the bill to you?" She asked
"It will be lovely of you could do that." He said "Or you want a credit card?" Will that be easier?
"I give up." She said "Give me that bloody ring!"
He passed her the ring and he said
"Do I look like that stupid?" He asked "I am going to make you feel like is worth to give me everything." He kissed her ears and continue.
"I am bringing you to Paris." He smiled
"You are so rude Lexie" He said and sat down the chair beside her
"Keep quiet" She felt annoyed when he started to talk
"Fine!" He said
7 years ago they were a pair of couple. No ones know that they were together, people used to think that they were best friends.
"Lexie can you come here for a moment?" A women cried and Lexie walked over without looking at him.
He looked at her and he thought how pretty was she? A small heart shaped face, fair skin and huge eyes. He smiled and thought how stupid was he to left her. He was only 31 and she was 19 when they broke off. He still remember the little girl who used to woo him by using lots of stupid and hilarious method. Such as lying to him that she was in an car accident, waited for him the cafe for few hours just wanted to bump into him. 7 years? Time is really flying.he is 38 now and the little girl in front of him is not a little girl anymore she is a women, a beautiful and attractive women.
"What are you doing here?" She asked
"Lance!" She cried
"What?" He was shocked.
"What were you thinking?" She asked
"Nothing." He replied
"What are you doing here?" She asked again
"Chilling?" He is here because he wanted to see her!
"CHILLING?" She asked and widen her eyes
"....." He didn't answer
"You know what? I am busy." She said coldly
"Lexie, we have to talk." He said
"About what?" What do he still want to talk about? About how much he loves the girl before they started a relationship? Or he felt so sorry, he wants her to forgive him? Or he is too mature for her, he hope she understands? Why is he coming back into her life? It has been 7 years after the broke off. She is happy with her life now. She has a boyfriend which is loyal and cute. Why?
"About us." He said calmly
"No. Lance I am sorry. No." She bagged "Please, is not a need. I am happy with my life now."
"Why? Give me a chance please!"
"NO! I say no means no! Is enough! I don't want to have a wonderful boy friend like you. No!" He was so wonderful. She remembered the first time they met, she was melted by his charming smile. He was so handsome and tall. He eyes was so amazing, she can feel that they were actually communicating with her. Besides that, he was so successful in his business. He is just wonderful!
"Lexie please. Just one more."
"No! Don't you know that I am in a serious relationship right now? You know him, don't you? Please give me a break." She said and she felt that her cheeks were wet by her tears
He didn't say anything in fact he hugged her
"Go away please. I don't wan to be hurt again. It really hurted when you told me how important was her. Please, leave me alone." She bagged
"Listen. I was wrong. I didn't realise how much I love you."
"NO! Please. You just felt annoyed when you noticed that I am getting married with Thomas soon."
"....." He didn't reply anything he kissed her forehead and he said "Lexie, I am not going to lose you again. I admit I realised how important was you when you told me you are marrying to that Thomas soon. But I used to tell you I want our relationship back don't you remember? Just that you thought I was joking. And I thought that You wont be marrying him!"
"I am not going to talk about this now. You go home and rest and think about it okay? " He said and he left
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"We were happy?" She asked her self.
She was sitting in a swing and thinking of what they used to do in the weekends. He used to fetch her with his bicycle every morning to the bakery to have their breakfast. How sweet was it? She turned around and she saw Lance sitting on a bench alone and smoking. He seems to be very lonely and sad. Is it because of her? She laughed herself being stupid. How can it because of her? He is so perfect. He can get any women he wants. She was just a nobody to him. He wanted her back just because he felt annoyed to lose.
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It has been 3 months after she saw him in the children's playground. She call the wedding off after that night. She doesn't want to be married while she was still thinking of another person. She has to admit how much she was in love with him. Although it has been 7 years. However she still can felt the pain every time she saw him.
"Lexie, Lance is here." A women said
"Oh please send him in." Perhaps she should just face him neutrally. Instead of asking him to leave every time he comes.
"Hey." She greeted
"Hey." He said
"I called the wedding off."
"Yea. I know" And he smiled
"You are such an evil." She said
"Thomas came to me yesterday." He said "He asked me why did you call the wedding off."
"Oh so what did you said?" She can sensed he told him something evil
"What do you think?" He asked
"Something evil i suppose."
"I told him, you thought that he is a gay." and laughed aloud
"What the hell!? Are you mad?" She asked and she laughed
She have to say it's funny!
"Yea, madly in love with you."
"How could you tell him that!? You hurt him you know?" She asked
"Yea, he was really shocked and he looked at me like WHAT!?." he laughed again
"Oh My God." She said
"Yes are you looking for me? I am your god." He said
"Is not funny." She said
They silent for a few seconds
"I thought you will scold me and ask me to leave." He said
"I wanted to, but isn't that pointless? Which I know Mrs.Wendy will still let you in?"
"Yea." He drank her coffee
"That's mine!" She said
"I don't mind."
"I mind. Of course you don't it is not yours."
"You should thank me."
"Why should I? Thank you for telling Thomas I thought he was a gay or what?"
"If we didn't broke off, you wont be so successful in your career." He said
"Ha..Ha.." Although she sounds like doesn't agree with him but she knows it's true
"This is for you." He gave her a box.
"A ring? Oh please!" She threw it back to him
"Why? Since now you are single. And I am single too." He said
"So many people out there are single? You suppose me to marry all of them?"
"You can if it is legal..." He said
"You know what? Get lost!" She said
"No.. Come with me I show you something." He said
"NO! Go away!"
"I will go if you come along."
"No!!! Don't you get it? I don't like you!"
"Oh please. trying to lie in front of me?"
"Where will you be bringing me?"
"Somewhere fun?" He raised his eyebrow
"Fun? How fun?"
"Just come!" He ordered
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"Lexie." He said
"Yes?"
"What was the thing you wanted the most while you was 19?" He knows it's him
"Money?" She doesn't wan to tell the truth
"I am thinking of giving something you wanted the most at that moment."
"Oh really?" Bullshit
"Lexie. I love you." He said "I know I yelled at you that day. However did I say that I love her? No! I didn't. You are the one who thought of it. "
"I am too young for you." She said
"Is it?" He asked "I remember once someone told me age doesn't matter her at all."
"It's matter me now."
"Are you really so in love with Thomas?" He asked and he stopped his car at the road side
"No." She said "Just that I haven't found the right one"
"Look at me!" He said "I am tired and too old for all this chasing, Lexie please. Give me a chance."
She didn't answered
"Please..." He sounded very helpless. He doesn't know what else can he do.
"Old man listen." She said "If you want a chance? Make me feel like is worth to give you one!"
"How?" He is really too old for this
She stared at him and said "depends on a expensive way or a cheap way."
"Which one is easier?"
"Expensive" Money can solve everything right?
"How?" Can't she just tell?
"You expect me to plan it and just send the bill to you?" She asked
"It will be lovely of you could do that." He said "Or you want a credit card?" Will that be easier?
"I give up." She said "Give me that bloody ring!"
He passed her the ring and he said
"Do I look like that stupid?" He asked "I am going to make you feel like is worth to give me everything." He kissed her ears and continue.
"I am bringing you to Paris." He smiled
Friday, August 22, 2008
Birthday Story
"I am leaving now." Said a lady "Oh by the way, Happy Birthday."
"Birthday!?" The man was shock and looked at the calendar in front of him and he smiled "I glad you remember that. I almost forgot about it."
"It's your birthday boss." Said the lady while she is arranging the file on his table.
"Aha.. Birthday." He tease himself
"Yea. It's your Birthday." She said "I am leaving now, I have to pick up my son from his tuition class."
"Oh right, Bye." He said and he lighted his cigarette.
"Birthday!? You must be kidding." He told him self. He looked at his watch "Maybe I should go for a walk."
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Night market is an event happens once or twice a week in most South-East Asia countries. This is a place that people used to sell vegetables, food and some cheap stuff like clothes and even plants.
"Hey, I would like to have a packet of Sugarcane juice." He said to the old man who is selling
He felt that someone was looking at him and he looked around and he found a very lovely girl is staring at him in a way that no one stared at him before. He gave her a very heart melting smile and turned away.
"Oh My God! Look at him! He made me melt." She told herself. It was so packed in the night market she wanted to walk to him and greet but she failed. He left before she reach him. This was the first time she wanted to go for someone she adores. She used to just look and do no action but this time it was different.
"Who was that girl?" He asked himself while he was driving. He wonder do he knows her? He cant stop wondering who was she and why was she staring at him in such a different way. Her huge eyes and pale look just cant get off of his mind. He thought of her every moment, she was like something and someone that means something to him.
"Sir..SIR!" The baristas cried.
"Yea!?" He was thinking of her again!
"Your coffee is ready." The baristas said
"Oh thank you." he grabbed the coffee and a girl cried
"Hey! That's mine."
"Oh!" Now he noticed it wasn't the hot latte he ordered but it was something cold "I am so sorry! I didn't notice that it was Iced..." He was stoned when he saw the girl who cried. Now he can see her clearly. How lovely was her. Her huge eyes on her tiny heart shaped face.
"Oh My God! It is you!" She cried "Oh you probably don't remember me ..."
"No, I do remember you." He said before she finish her line
"Oh..." She was shocked by his words. What!? He remember me!? He actually remember me!? Since today was her birthday, does this consider a present from the god?
"So, what are you doing in the shopping mall so early in the morning?" He asked after a few seconds of silent.
"Oh my college is just beside the mall." She answered "Oh! I am going to be late! I got to go. You know what? Maybe we can catch up tomorrow at the same time." and she rushed away
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"You look happy today, boss." Said the lady "Or I should say you look delight"
"Oh Really?" He smiled "So who is dying today?"
"Doctor there is an emergency coming in two minutes." Said a nurse walked into his office
He didn't not answer a word, he quickly wore his white doctor's coat and rush to the ER(emergency room).
"A pregnant women, aged 37." Said the nurse while they are rushing to the ER
"37!? What a dangerous age to have a baby!" He said
"Okay people, it's showtime." He said
"Her water is broken" Said the nurse
"Well, lets do it." He said "Okay you will be just fine. you baby will be coming out now. All you have to do is lie back and push."
"OK now push whenever you are ready." He said "Push... push...push.. that's it... push..you are doing great.. push...OK now one final push and that's it!" He carried the baby and he said again "Oh it's a baby boy."
"Doctor, there is another emergency in room 4." Said the nurse, he quickly passed the baby boy to another doctor and rush to another room.
"You know what? I am kinda tired working in the ER." He said while he is in a surgery.
"This is life man!" Said the other surgeon. "Guess what? I threw 25 shirts and 3 pants yesterday."
"Oh I haven't pack mine." He replied
"Why do you throw it?" Asked a trainee.
"Because it all stained with blood!" The surgeon said "You know it's really sick when you changed from the ugly green surgery clothe to your owns and ready to go home and Emergencies came and you have to do everything with your own clothes."
"Yea.. I know." He said "That day a old women puked blood on my brad new Emporio Armani. I was like what the hell!"
"Okay we are done here." The surgeon said "Let's go for coffee"
"Lovely!" He answered "You*pointing at the trainee*, clear up this mess, as you know we are going for coffee"
"Dude don't feel sad." Said the surgeon "When we were a trainee those old hacks did that to us too."
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"Iced Mocha please" She said to the cashier
"Hot Latte please" He said right after she ordered
"One bill?" Asked the cashier
"Yes" He answered
"Oh no!" She defended
"No make it one bill." He said "Let me buy you a cup of coffee"
"Oh I don't know it was you."She turned back and she saw his handsome face
"Is okay. So are you rushing today?" He asked
"No."
"Then please sit, I have a question that i would like to ask you."
"What?"
"That day in the night market. Why did stare at me that way?" He asked
"Oww... Do I have to answer that?" her cheek blushed
"Oh of course"
"I don't know. Maybe because you were too attractive"
"Were?"
"Oh No, you are still attractive now."
"Is it?"
"Yea of course" She said quickly
His phone rang and he said
"I got to go now. May be I can buy you something more than a cup of coffee tomorrow." he smiled and walked away
p/s I just wanna say Xinyi, happy bday!
"Birthday!?" The man was shock and looked at the calendar in front of him and he smiled "I glad you remember that. I almost forgot about it."
"It's your birthday boss." Said the lady while she is arranging the file on his table.
"Aha.. Birthday." He tease himself
"Yea. It's your Birthday." She said "I am leaving now, I have to pick up my son from his tuition class."
"Oh right, Bye." He said and he lighted his cigarette.
"Birthday!? You must be kidding." He told him self. He looked at his watch "Maybe I should go for a walk."
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Night market is an event happens once or twice a week in most South-East Asia countries. This is a place that people used to sell vegetables, food and some cheap stuff like clothes and even plants.
"Hey, I would like to have a packet of Sugarcane juice." He said to the old man who is selling
He felt that someone was looking at him and he looked around and he found a very lovely girl is staring at him in a way that no one stared at him before. He gave her a very heart melting smile and turned away.
"Oh My God! Look at him! He made me melt." She told herself. It was so packed in the night market she wanted to walk to him and greet but she failed. He left before she reach him. This was the first time she wanted to go for someone she adores. She used to just look and do no action but this time it was different.
"Who was that girl?" He asked himself while he was driving. He wonder do he knows her? He cant stop wondering who was she and why was she staring at him in such a different way. Her huge eyes and pale look just cant get off of his mind. He thought of her every moment, she was like something and someone that means something to him.
"Sir..SIR!" The baristas cried.
"Yea!?" He was thinking of her again!
"Your coffee is ready." The baristas said
"Oh thank you." he grabbed the coffee and a girl cried
"Hey! That's mine."
"Oh!" Now he noticed it wasn't the hot latte he ordered but it was something cold "I am so sorry! I didn't notice that it was Iced..." He was stoned when he saw the girl who cried. Now he can see her clearly. How lovely was her. Her huge eyes on her tiny heart shaped face.
"Oh My God! It is you!" She cried "Oh you probably don't remember me ..."
"No, I do remember you." He said before she finish her line
"Oh..." She was shocked by his words. What!? He remember me!? He actually remember me!? Since today was her birthday, does this consider a present from the god?
"So, what are you doing in the shopping mall so early in the morning?" He asked after a few seconds of silent.
"Oh my college is just beside the mall." She answered "Oh! I am going to be late! I got to go. You know what? Maybe we can catch up tomorrow at the same time." and she rushed away
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"You look happy today, boss." Said the lady "Or I should say you look delight"
"Oh Really?" He smiled "So who is dying today?"
"Doctor there is an emergency coming in two minutes." Said a nurse walked into his office
He didn't not answer a word, he quickly wore his white doctor's coat and rush to the ER(emergency room).
"A pregnant women, aged 37." Said the nurse while they are rushing to the ER
"37!? What a dangerous age to have a baby!" He said
"Okay people, it's showtime." He said
"Her water is broken" Said the nurse
"Well, lets do it." He said "Okay you will be just fine. you baby will be coming out now. All you have to do is lie back and push."
"OK now push whenever you are ready." He said "Push... push...push.. that's it... push..you are doing great.. push...OK now one final push and that's it!" He carried the baby and he said again "Oh it's a baby boy."
"Doctor, there is another emergency in room 4." Said the nurse, he quickly passed the baby boy to another doctor and rush to another room.
"You know what? I am kinda tired working in the ER." He said while he is in a surgery.
"This is life man!" Said the other surgeon. "Guess what? I threw 25 shirts and 3 pants yesterday."
"Oh I haven't pack mine." He replied
"Why do you throw it?" Asked a trainee.
"Because it all stained with blood!" The surgeon said "You know it's really sick when you changed from the ugly green surgery clothe to your owns and ready to go home and Emergencies came and you have to do everything with your own clothes."
"Yea.. I know." He said "That day a old women puked blood on my brad new Emporio Armani. I was like what the hell!"
"Okay we are done here." The surgeon said "Let's go for coffee"
"Lovely!" He answered "You*pointing at the trainee*, clear up this mess, as you know we are going for coffee"
"Dude don't feel sad." Said the surgeon "When we were a trainee those old hacks did that to us too."
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"Iced Mocha please" She said to the cashier
"Hot Latte please" He said right after she ordered
"One bill?" Asked the cashier
"Yes" He answered
"Oh no!" She defended
"No make it one bill." He said "Let me buy you a cup of coffee"
"Oh I don't know it was you."She turned back and she saw his handsome face
"Is okay. So are you rushing today?" He asked
"No."
"Then please sit, I have a question that i would like to ask you."
"What?"
"That day in the night market. Why did stare at me that way?" He asked
"Oww... Do I have to answer that?" her cheek blushed
"Oh of course"
"I don't know. Maybe because you were too attractive"
"Were?"
"Oh No, you are still attractive now."
"Is it?"
"Yea of course" She said quickly
His phone rang and he said
"I got to go now. May be I can buy you something more than a cup of coffee tomorrow." he smiled and walked away
p/s I just wanna say Xinyi, happy bday!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Love is not Impossible
She was looking at the ceiling of her room. Her brain was so blank,
"Am I awake yet!?" She asked herself "Do I have class today?" She was so puzzled by her college timetable. The timetable of her current semester is a totally mess. Everyday when she wakes up, she have to think did she wake up in the right time, or is she late for class. She couldn't forget once she thought that she was late and she rushed to the bathroom and only she remember she has no class on that particular day.
She walked in to the kitchen with a knee length shorts and a T-shirt. She saw a man was sitting in the kitchen with a laptop. She ignored him and poured herself a cup of plain water.
"Morning." He greeted with his deep and sexy voice without looking at her.
"Morning." She said dully.
She sat down on the chair that opposite him and stared at him for a few seconds.
Finally he raised his head and asked "May I help you?"
"Breakfast?" She asked
"Aren't you schooling today?" He asked
"I suppose I am not." She answered
"What do you mean by you suppose? Shouldn't you be sure of that?" He asked with a wicked smile
"You know why!" She said
"Alright then." He answered
He is one of the people that worked in her house. They were having a project, and they rent her house for 3 months.
She likes him a lot when the first day she saw him. He captured her with his pair of huge pupils and his thin and sexy lips. However, she knows, it's impossible for both of them to start a relationship. They were different kinda of people, they are just like a chicken and a duck which both are in the bird family but they are different. He is from somewhere she have no idea about it, he is a mature man which is very different from her. She is a girl that is still curious about the world, a girl who still in college.
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As usual she wanted to walk into the kitchen and assuming he will be sitting there alone but she saw something different. A very sexy and attractive women was sitting beside him. They looks like a pair of couple. She was so sad and she didnt walk into the kitchen instead she walk back to her room.
"Why am I so stupid!?" She asked herself "I should know this will be happened." She didnt cry but instead she changed her clothes and went to a cafe that located in a hospital that near her college. That cafe was a place for her to hide herself from others when she is sad or busy.
After that day, she started to avoid him. She doesn't wants to be hurt anymore. Everytime she see him, she felt the pain.
"Hey." He greeted when he saw her wearing shoes preparing to go college
"Hi." She acted like nothing happened.
"Hey." He repeated again
"Yea. What's up?" She asked. Please get away from her.
"Erm, I though you don't have morning class today." He said dully
"........." She didnt answered instead she walked away
He couldn't explain the feeling when she just walked away without an answer. He felt very unhappy but who is she to him? She is just a little girl right? Love!? No, no, no! It will be madness if he is in love with such a young girl.
"Ouch!" She cried when a person knocked her down
"Oh I am sorry." He apologized.
"Oh god! My work." She cried
"Oh My God." He was so scared when he saw more than 500 pieces of paper are all over the floor.
"Hey, I don't mean to knocked you down. I was..." He tried to explain
"Is okay." She kneel down and pick the papers up.
"No, let me help you." He kneel down too
"No. Is really ok." She rejected his offer
"Why!?" He asked "What is wrong with you these days?"
"Nothing is wrong. Just that I think I can handle this by myself." She answered
"By yourself!? Don't be crazy!" He cried
She threw all the paper she picked up and said "Since you like to help that much. Pick everything up and rearrange it!" After saying that she walked up to her room.
She was so tired, she bathed and she forgotten everything. She felt asleep until midnight she went to the kitchen for some water and she saw him sitting on the hall alone arranging the papers. She felt so guilty and walked to him
"You know what!? Actually this paper are not important. Leave it to me." She said softly. Her heart was broke when she saw how tired was he, the red veins on his eyes and yet he still arranging the papers.
He didnt answer instead he asked "What is wrong with you these days?"
She didnt answer, she rose and walked to the kitchen. She tears were on her cheeks, she doesn't know how to answer him.
"Why are you crying? Please tell me what had I done" He said
"Is not your fault. Sorry." She said
"No tell me. I want to know!" He cried
"Is me! I am dumb I am in love with you." She said "I know is impossible for us to be together. I am just dumb. Please get away from me."
He was stoned for a few seconds and he hugged her and he whispered
"Why is it impossible?" Actually he knew why she thought of that, because they are different.
"........." She was silent
"I thought of that too. However, we just have to cop with it my dear." He whispered
"I don't know" She said
He kissed her forehead and whispered again
"Go to bed and let me finish the papers. Okay?" He said
"No, Those paper I bought back wanted to send to the recycle center. Is not a need to arrange it." She said
"What!?" He stared at her
"I thought you will ignore me. I didnt know that you actually...." She said "Oh please don't be mad. I was so angry of myself just now."
"You silly girl. Do you know how tired was me?" He asked
"I know. I felt like my heart was broken when I saw you alone in the hall." She said
"Yea.. You should. I am tired now. And no point for me to leave now. I think I have to sleep at your hall." He said
"I guess so. You need blanket?" She asked
"Yea. "
She took a blanket for him and he said
"I know what you saw that day, she is just my client." He said
"Oh.. I didnt see anything." She lied
"You saw because I saw you" He said and he smiled
"Am I awake yet!?" She asked herself "Do I have class today?" She was so puzzled by her college timetable. The timetable of her current semester is a totally mess. Everyday when she wakes up, she have to think did she wake up in the right time, or is she late for class. She couldn't forget once she thought that she was late and she rushed to the bathroom and only she remember she has no class on that particular day.
She walked in to the kitchen with a knee length shorts and a T-shirt. She saw a man was sitting in the kitchen with a laptop. She ignored him and poured herself a cup of plain water.
"Morning." He greeted with his deep and sexy voice without looking at her.
"Morning." She said dully.
She sat down on the chair that opposite him and stared at him for a few seconds.
Finally he raised his head and asked "May I help you?"
"Breakfast?" She asked
"Aren't you schooling today?" He asked
"I suppose I am not." She answered
"What do you mean by you suppose? Shouldn't you be sure of that?" He asked with a wicked smile
"You know why!" She said
"Alright then." He answered
He is one of the people that worked in her house. They were having a project, and they rent her house for 3 months.
She likes him a lot when the first day she saw him. He captured her with his pair of huge pupils and his thin and sexy lips. However, she knows, it's impossible for both of them to start a relationship. They were different kinda of people, they are just like a chicken and a duck which both are in the bird family but they are different. He is from somewhere she have no idea about it, he is a mature man which is very different from her. She is a girl that is still curious about the world, a girl who still in college.
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As usual she wanted to walk into the kitchen and assuming he will be sitting there alone but she saw something different. A very sexy and attractive women was sitting beside him. They looks like a pair of couple. She was so sad and she didnt walk into the kitchen instead she walk back to her room.
"Why am I so stupid!?" She asked herself "I should know this will be happened." She didnt cry but instead she changed her clothes and went to a cafe that located in a hospital that near her college. That cafe was a place for her to hide herself from others when she is sad or busy.
After that day, she started to avoid him. She doesn't wants to be hurt anymore. Everytime she see him, she felt the pain.
"Hey." He greeted when he saw her wearing shoes preparing to go college
"Hi." She acted like nothing happened.
"Hey." He repeated again
"Yea. What's up?" She asked. Please get away from her.
"Erm, I though you don't have morning class today." He said dully
"........." She didnt answered instead she walked away
He couldn't explain the feeling when she just walked away without an answer. He felt very unhappy but who is she to him? She is just a little girl right? Love!? No, no, no! It will be madness if he is in love with such a young girl.
"Ouch!" She cried when a person knocked her down
"Oh I am sorry." He apologized.
"Oh god! My work." She cried
"Oh My God." He was so scared when he saw more than 500 pieces of paper are all over the floor.
"Hey, I don't mean to knocked you down. I was..." He tried to explain
"Is okay." She kneel down and pick the papers up.
"No, let me help you." He kneel down too
"No. Is really ok." She rejected his offer
"Why!?" He asked "What is wrong with you these days?"
"Nothing is wrong. Just that I think I can handle this by myself." She answered
"By yourself!? Don't be crazy!" He cried
She threw all the paper she picked up and said "Since you like to help that much. Pick everything up and rearrange it!" After saying that she walked up to her room.
She was so tired, she bathed and she forgotten everything. She felt asleep until midnight she went to the kitchen for some water and she saw him sitting on the hall alone arranging the papers. She felt so guilty and walked to him
"You know what!? Actually this paper are not important. Leave it to me." She said softly. Her heart was broke when she saw how tired was he, the red veins on his eyes and yet he still arranging the papers.
He didnt answer instead he asked "What is wrong with you these days?"
She didnt answer, she rose and walked to the kitchen. She tears were on her cheeks, she doesn't know how to answer him.
"Why are you crying? Please tell me what had I done" He said
"Is not your fault. Sorry." She said
"No tell me. I want to know!" He cried
"Is me! I am dumb I am in love with you." She said "I know is impossible for us to be together. I am just dumb. Please get away from me."
He was stoned for a few seconds and he hugged her and he whispered
"Why is it impossible?" Actually he knew why she thought of that, because they are different.
"........." She was silent
"I thought of that too. However, we just have to cop with it my dear." He whispered
"I don't know" She said
He kissed her forehead and whispered again
"Go to bed and let me finish the papers. Okay?" He said
"No, Those paper I bought back wanted to send to the recycle center. Is not a need to arrange it." She said
"What!?" He stared at her
"I thought you will ignore me. I didnt know that you actually...." She said "Oh please don't be mad. I was so angry of myself just now."
"You silly girl. Do you know how tired was me?" He asked
"I know. I felt like my heart was broken when I saw you alone in the hall." She said
"Yea.. You should. I am tired now. And no point for me to leave now. I think I have to sleep at your hall." He said
"I guess so. You need blanket?" She asked
"Yea. "
She took a blanket for him and he said
"I know what you saw that day, she is just my client." He said
"Oh.. I didnt see anything." She lied
"You saw because I saw you" He said and he smiled
Thursday, August 7, 2008
The Dark Angel
I am at the roof top of the hospital, feeling the cool breeze, watching the busy city. The bright neons lighting everywhere, the sky scrappers filling the whole city, cars non-stop moving, everything seems to be so alive, except me.
"I'm sorry, Miss Belle. I have to tell you it's a bad news. You have got a tumour on your brain. A big one. And I'm afraid that you can't live more than 6 months." The doctor's dianogsis when I first admitted to the hospital three months ago due to sudden faint kept repeating in my head.
Why me? This is my 1st reaction. That's me. This is how i accepted everything after months.
With no relatives and closed friends, i can only rely on my boyfriend, Evan. I am so pleasant that he didn't walk away from me when he knew this. In fact, he's the one to make me felt more better. I am a burden for him.
Tomorrow afternoon, i am going to lay on the operation bed, the first and last operation which will determine my life. "The success percentage of this operation is 50% and you have to decide whether to take a bet or not." It was Evan who make the decision for me of the operation. I was very inconfident. Not a bit at all. Nevertheless, the operation will consume a large sum of money which may use up all of Evan's saving. I am very thankful for what he had done for me for the past few months and i think i shouldn't grave more to him which this operation doesn't fully guarantee a live for me.
I have a notion. I wanted to end my life faster so that Evan can get out of me and lead a new life. I stand on the edge of the building, looking at the tiny cars moving like little ants below me, I spread my hands wide, close my eyes, the chilling wind makes my mind blank. I imagine myself falling down from the building, a step nearer to heaven. Just as when I wanted to take a step ahead, a voice strikes me. "Wow, it's so windy here! hmm... how can i not notice here until now?"
I quickly look to the direction of the voice. A pale skinny boy with the age almost same as me, wearing the same patient robe as me, is sitting on the edge of the building too. Despite his weak look, his wide smile adorns his appearance.
"Who are you? When do you come here?" I asked in surprise because I didn't notice his entrance.
"Annabelle Kingsman. You don't remember me?" I can see a swipe of disappointment on his face.
"You know me? Do I know you?" I recall back my memories but none of his character comes out.
"Aizs, i should have know you forgot about me. I'm Jared O'Connell. We were classmates during high school and you are the one who gave me a helping hand when i was bullied by few idiots." He's hoping for my reaction.
Slides of memories run through my head. I knew him! I was a prefect in high school and was so angry to see a few big bullies wanted to take advantage of Jared. Jared was a skinny boy since small. He was everytime absent from school due to his illness.
"Hey, it's such a coincident to see you here." I smile. "It's so dangerous for you to sit there, Jared!" I shout at him.
"It makes no difference for you to stand there too." His smile is so warm until i can feel it in my heart. My smile fade when he said that. I am so frustrated and so upset on everything happened. I walk to his side and sit beside him.
"My dear friend," he look away from me "don't give up so easily. What i failed to do, you can make it. You are the toughest and bravest girl i have encountered. You will go through all these." He turn to me and his hand touch my face. I can see his sadness in his eye and can feel the coldness of his hand. I hug him and tears flow down on my cheek.
"Come, let's go back inside. It's cold here and you can't take it." Suddenly I feel so relieve and urge him to go back into the building. I knew I have to go to the operation tomorrow. I have to fight for the chance to live.
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One month later...
"Hey Jared, I'm fully recovered already. Yesterday Evan proposed to me and i accepted him" I smile. "Our wedding will be on this year end!"
Holding a bouquet of white daisies, I stand in front of Jared's grave. I can feel his portrait on the graveboard smiling back to me, congratulate my succession on the operation one month ago.
After my operation, only I realised that Jared died on his operation the afternoon before we talked that night, and only that time I knew why his body was so cold that night. I am so thankful that he rescued me from ending my life. I am so grateful that he helped me and confidented me. I appreciated his appearance that night.
"Jared, thank you. Thanks a lot! What you failed to do, I did it!" I thanked him before I left. I hope he will rest in peace.
p/s: the story is inspired by a daily nespaper ;)
"I'm sorry, Miss Belle. I have to tell you it's a bad news. You have got a tumour on your brain. A big one. And I'm afraid that you can't live more than 6 months." The doctor's dianogsis when I first admitted to the hospital three months ago due to sudden faint kept repeating in my head.
Why me? This is my 1st reaction. That's me. This is how i accepted everything after months.
With no relatives and closed friends, i can only rely on my boyfriend, Evan. I am so pleasant that he didn't walk away from me when he knew this. In fact, he's the one to make me felt more better. I am a burden for him.
Tomorrow afternoon, i am going to lay on the operation bed, the first and last operation which will determine my life. "The success percentage of this operation is 50% and you have to decide whether to take a bet or not." It was Evan who make the decision for me of the operation. I was very inconfident. Not a bit at all. Nevertheless, the operation will consume a large sum of money which may use up all of Evan's saving. I am very thankful for what he had done for me for the past few months and i think i shouldn't grave more to him which this operation doesn't fully guarantee a live for me.
I have a notion. I wanted to end my life faster so that Evan can get out of me and lead a new life. I stand on the edge of the building, looking at the tiny cars moving like little ants below me, I spread my hands wide, close my eyes, the chilling wind makes my mind blank. I imagine myself falling down from the building, a step nearer to heaven. Just as when I wanted to take a step ahead, a voice strikes me. "Wow, it's so windy here! hmm... how can i not notice here until now?"
I quickly look to the direction of the voice. A pale skinny boy with the age almost same as me, wearing the same patient robe as me, is sitting on the edge of the building too. Despite his weak look, his wide smile adorns his appearance.
"Who are you? When do you come here?" I asked in surprise because I didn't notice his entrance.
"Annabelle Kingsman. You don't remember me?" I can see a swipe of disappointment on his face.
"You know me? Do I know you?" I recall back my memories but none of his character comes out.
"Aizs, i should have know you forgot about me. I'm Jared O'Connell. We were classmates during high school and you are the one who gave me a helping hand when i was bullied by few idiots." He's hoping for my reaction.
Slides of memories run through my head. I knew him! I was a prefect in high school and was so angry to see a few big bullies wanted to take advantage of Jared. Jared was a skinny boy since small. He was everytime absent from school due to his illness.
"Hey, it's such a coincident to see you here." I smile. "It's so dangerous for you to sit there, Jared!" I shout at him.
"It makes no difference for you to stand there too." His smile is so warm until i can feel it in my heart. My smile fade when he said that. I am so frustrated and so upset on everything happened. I walk to his side and sit beside him.
"My dear friend," he look away from me "don't give up so easily. What i failed to do, you can make it. You are the toughest and bravest girl i have encountered. You will go through all these." He turn to me and his hand touch my face. I can see his sadness in his eye and can feel the coldness of his hand. I hug him and tears flow down on my cheek.
"Come, let's go back inside. It's cold here and you can't take it." Suddenly I feel so relieve and urge him to go back into the building. I knew I have to go to the operation tomorrow. I have to fight for the chance to live.
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One month later...
"Hey Jared, I'm fully recovered already. Yesterday Evan proposed to me and i accepted him" I smile. "Our wedding will be on this year end!"
Holding a bouquet of white daisies, I stand in front of Jared's grave. I can feel his portrait on the graveboard smiling back to me, congratulate my succession on the operation one month ago.
After my operation, only I realised that Jared died on his operation the afternoon before we talked that night, and only that time I knew why his body was so cold that night. I am so thankful that he rescued me from ending my life. I am so grateful that he helped me and confidented me. I appreciated his appearance that night.
"Jared, thank you. Thanks a lot! What you failed to do, I did it!" I thanked him before I left. I hope he will rest in peace.
p/s: the story is inspired by a daily nespaper ;)
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